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Snow and Ice

The ice was glass clear. Here and there thin trails of air bubbles had gotten caught as it froze, rising through in perfectly spaced lines. If you knew more about how ice formed, could you use the bubbles in it to tell how fast it had frozen? Were air bubbles in ice like rings on a tree somehow? Claire did not know. Instead she used the bubbles to see the thickness, about an inch. Not enough to go out on safely then, but that was hardly surprising. It had been a warm winter thus far. The last few days had been bitter, true, but the lake was big.

She rose again from her crouch and looked around. The smoke from her father’s mill was still visible, curling up against the blue sky. If she squinted just right, she could pretend it was a dragon. Her sister would have insisted that it was just smoke, but then again Abby never had been the most imaginative. The only way to get her to play such games was to give her something to correct, a reason she was not really “playing.” Claire always dragged her into it anyway.

The woods around her were quiet and empty. Convinced no one was watching, she gathered her thick winter skirts into a tight bundle and lifted them to her chest before bringing down her foot on the edge of the ice. The heel of her boot left a fault line as the impact sent waves rippling across the surface. She watched them dissipate. Ice may be solid, but part of it seemed to remember being liquid and yearn for those days. She brought her heel down again. The fault widened and water began to seep up onto the surface. She dropped her skirts and crouched to pry with her fingers.

The cold stung the tips and stained them purple. The feeling seemed distant as she focused on her task. One edge was popped up already, now she just needed to get a finger under it. She bit her lip as she pried. It was slick – Abby would have laughed at her for such an obvious observation. Her fingers just couldn’t get purchase. She could wiggle it a bit further out, but invariably it slid from her grasp and plonked back into the water beneath, splashing her cold hands. She muttered irritably under her breath and kept trying.

Suddenly a voice asked, “Do you need a hand, miss?” She sprang to her feet, guiltily tucking her hands into her pockets. Ten feet from her stood a tall man. A thick wool hat was pulled low over his ears and the rest of his face was covered in a scarf. His clothes were patchwork and mismatched. He could be one of the poorer village men, if not for his eyes. Their clear blue almost matched that of the sky, only a shade lighter. Definitely not a local then. Most had brown eyes like her own, and the odd ones out never went past a pale hazel.

He was still waiting politely for her response. She forced her eyes away from his own and nodded, wishing she had a scarf to cover her own, presumably burning, cheeks.

He bowed slightly and asked, “How may I help then?”

She stared at him before remembering his original question and stammering, “Oh sorry, I meant yes I am fine. I don’t need help. I’m just… looking at the ice.”

He turned to look out over the lake as well. “It is quite beautiful, isn’t it.”

He was not near. He had stopped at a respectable distance, and had made no move to approach. Still, her heart beat fast in her chest. Abby was full of horror stories about things that happened to girls who went alone into the woods and were found by huntsman, or woodcutters, or trappers. Their father always sternly reprimanded her, pointing out all the nice men they knew who did those very jobs. Still though, Claire could not help but remembering her sister’s words now. She shivered.

The stranger turned to her. “Are you cold?”

His voice held nothing but polite concern and yet she shivered again. An idea hit her and she nodded quickly. “Yes, indeed. I should return home now.”

For a moment she was worried he would offer to walk her but thankfully he just nodded. “Have a good afternoon then, miss. It was nice to meet you.”

She nodded and without a reply, turned and walked away as fast as she could without running.

***

By the next day, Abby had of course pestered her into explaining why she had come back from her walk so jittery. Claire had expected her to laugh, or freak out and warn her again of the dangers of a woman out on her own. Instead she just looked thoughtful, and then announced that today they would go together.

After lunch they gathered their things, said goodbye to their father, and headed out across the snow. Abby went first, as always. When they were together, Claire was her shadow. She liked it though; behind her sister was always a safe place to be.

Claire’s tracks from yesterday still crossed the narrow bank; it had been a still night without even a whisper of wind to sweep them clean. They followed her path, tamping it down further. The edges cast a stark shadow across the landscape. A scar cut into the snow, though of course Abby would call that silly as well.

Finally they reached the end. Abby stopped. “No tracks.” Her voice was calm, thoughtful. Claire felt anything but. She stepped to the side to look around her sister. The ground was indeed unmarred. Only her own tracks dented the snow. Of the stranger, there was no sign.

She looked over to Abby, unable to keep a quaver out of her voice as she asked, “What does that mean?” She did not vocalize her real question: was she going mad? Their grandfather had started seeing people who didn’t exist near the end of his years. She was still young though, and Baba had been perfectly normal until seventy.

Abby crouched to feel the snow and then stood. A wild smile twisted her lips. Claire stepped back involuntarily as Abby declared, “It means, dear sister, that we’re going to set a trap.”

Claire frowned less from confusion than worry at her sister’s behavior. She asked cautiously, “A trap? For… who?”

“The elf king, of course.”

Claire stared at her. She knew of the elf king, yes. He was a children’s story, a dangerous face out in the night used to scare the kiddies into going to bed on time. Her sister did not seriously believe… No of course not. Abby was just messing with her. Much as she loved her sister, she knew Abby could have a bit of a mean streak. Voice weak, she responded, “Haha, very funny.”

Abby rolled her eyes. “I’m serious. I was in town yesterday and – well you know Lt. Parker? Blond hair, sweet spot for me after I gave him the pie that once? Well Lt. Parker says he and some of the guys are on a top secret mission. From the king no less. To catch his elfy counterpart.”

Claire crossed her arms. “Stop it Abby.”

Abby crossed hers as well. “I am not messing with you, I swear. Look into my eyes and tell me I’m not being honest.”

Claire obeyed. Determination, excitement… but not deception. She swallowed hard. “The king… thinks elves exist.”

Abby nodded. “Yep. Apparently they’re a righteous pain too if he’s sending folks after their king. If we catch him, we would be heroes. There’s a reward too, a thousand crowns. Think of it!”

Claire did. Oh how she did. A thousand crowns would be dowry enough for both of them, and some extra for the mill. She did not go into town enough to have her eye on anyone herself, but she knew the only reason Abby wasn’t leaning on her Lt. Parker to propose was because their father could ill-afford it.

It was a dangerous idea, but there was no chance of talking Abby out of something when she had that look in her eyes. Claire sighed and assented, “Alright, fine. Let’s do it. I assume you have a plan already?”

Abby smiled triumphantly. “Yes, of course. We’ll use you as bait, and then snag him. Easy.”

Easy?!

“Yes. He has already approached you once – probably to steal you away to be his queen or something – so he’s sure to come back. They’re bound by iron, silver, and gold. You’ve got Amma’s chain. Just wait til he get’s close, tie it around his neck, and then that’s it!”

Claire crossed her arms. “And what will you be doing?”

“I’m going to get Lt. Porter to help us carry him off at the end. Don’t worry, if he comes before I return you can just wait with him!”

“What? We’re doing this now? You can’t just leave me!”

Abby was already walking though, and tossed a wave over her shoulder. “It’ll be fine you worry-wort! Trust me!”

Claire stared after her. What on earth had gotten into Abby today? She must be planning something, she would not seriously… No, her sister was clever. She was working on something bigger. Despite their arguments, Claire really did trust Abby. So she stayed. She even carefully took off the golden cross hanging from her neck and curled it in her fist instead as well.

The world was quiet except for the soft moaning of the ice as it flexed in the prison of the shore. Claire looked around suspiciously. Nobody in sight. After a few minutes she began to pace impatiently. Hopefully Abby would hurry.

Suddenly a dark figure loomed in front of her. She screamed and fell backward into the snow. The stranger laughed and crouched to offer a hand. “Sorry miss. I didn’t mean to startle you.” She stared at the hand, then down to his feet. His leather boots hovered just above the surface of the snow. He followed her gaze. “Ah. Oops.”His feet broke through. He shuffled them around a bit as if searching for the ground and then nodded. “Sorry about that. Sorry about that too I suppose. This is going well, wouldn’t you say?”

She made no move to take the hand, but finally was able to bring herself to words. “What do you want? Are you… actually the elf king?”

He laughed and sat in the snow opposite her, dropping his hands into his lap. “No, no. I’m not the king. Just one of his huntsmen. And you? You’re the miller’s daughter, am I right?”

She nodded suspiciously. He seemed happy to talk on his own and continued, “That’s nice. You must eat lots of bread and such right?”

She nodded again, almost more put off by his casual conversation than the fact that he had just admitted to working for a mythical figure.

“I’ve always liked bread. Especially the rye, something about the texture is very satisfying when had with a bit of blackberry jelly. Exquisite.”

He paused to regard her. She wished he would undo his scarf so she could see his expression. Then again, perhaps she wouldn’t like what she saw. His eyes were calm and interested. Did he suspect that they were planning a trap? Was he sizing her up? She on her own was hardly that threatening. She had the necklace, but how on earth was she suppose to get it on him?

For now, stalling seemed the best option. Maybe she could gather some information while she prayed for Abby to get back. It seemed to be her turn to drive the conversation so she asked as casually as she could, “So, where does he… live? The… elf king?”

The stranger flopped back on the snow and spread his arms like he was preparing to make an angel. “He has many palaces. Under the hills, in the trees, amongst the clouds… for the winter though, we stay in the lake.”

She gazed over the cold ice and shivered. “Doesn’t it get cold?”

He threw himself back to sitting and nodded, “Oh, extremely. You can’t start a fire underwater either! But it doesn’t freeze solid, so it could be worse. Warmer than it is out here some days…”

“And you can… breathe? Down there?”

“Mmmmhm. We’re not as limited as your kind are.”

“Huh.”

They fell into silence for a moment before she asked, a bit nervously, “You never answered my other question. About, you know, what you want?”

He shrugged and answered, “Oh, just company. It gets boring always talking to the same people you know.”

“How many of you are there?”

He tilted his head to the side and then shrugged. “A few thousand. Give or take.”

She raised an eyebrow. “And you know all of them?”

The skin by his eyes crinkled as if he was smiling. “I get around.”

Silence returned. The woods were still. No sign of Abby, or the guards. Though maybe that was for the best, seeing as they had the wrong person. The question was whether she brave enough to try to get the right one. If she waited and they came back, their chance would be gone. The king was hardly going to come once he knew they were hunting him. She steeled herself and asked cautiously, “So, you are a huntsman. That means you must know the king, right?”

He nodded calmly. “Of course. We go hunting together all the time.”

“What, up here?”

He nodded again enthusiastically, “Indeed! What did you think, we hunted fish? You can hardly find something more boring!”

She smiled tensely. If he came to the surface regularly, this might actually be possible. “Can I… come? Sometime?”

He stared at her. “You want to come hunting. With the king.”

His tone was flat and emotionless. Unsure how else to respond, she just nodded.

“You’re a miller’s daughter.”

She scowled and put her hands on her hips. “And what is wrong with that? At least a miller makes something useful!”

He stared at her and then laughed, holding up his hands in surrender. “Fair, fair. But you are hardly hang-out-with-the-king class you must admit. You’d have to be a princess or something.”

She crossed her arms and tilted her chin up haughtily. “I don’t have to be his guest. I can be yours. Or is a miller’s daughter not worthy to be a huntsman’s guest either?”

He regarded her. Again she wished she could see more than just those eyes, pretty as they were. He asked, surprisingly serious after his banter, “Do you really want to? It might be dangerous.”

She bit her lip but nodded. He watched her for a moment longer before nodding decisively. His voice was heavy as he said, “Very well. I will pick you up tomorrow, same place. Noon. Dress warmly.”

He stood and she scrambled back to her feet as well. Her skirts were soaked through. She shivered and wrapped her arms around herself for warmth. He tilted his head to the side and sighed. “Here, take this.”

The scarf he held out to her was longer than she had expected, a full ten feet. His face underneath was surprisingly normal. Nut brown skin, clean shaven, strong jawline. She took the scarf hesitantly. Her fingers curled into the warm fabric and she looked down to inspect it. Cashmere by the feel of it, dyed in muted browns and greens and woven into a subtle plaid. She opened her mouth to thank him, but when she glanced up he was already gone. She whispered it to the wind anyway before curling the wide band around herself like a shawl and hurrying home.

***

Claire ate her breakfast in silence. She had not told Abby about her plan. She told herself it was because she needed to gather more information first. They would have a better trap if they knew what paths the king hunted along, how many hunted with him, and what weapons they carried. Abby would try to come along if she knew; it was safer this way. The scarf’s weight on her mind betrayed the truth. Once they went after the king, the only real adventure she had found would be over. That wasn’t really it either, but it was the lie she chose to believe.

She had, however, explained that her elf was the wrong one. Initially Abby had insisted it must be a deception, but after a thorough description of his disheveled appearance she yielded. The money would have been nice, but it was not such a disaster as it might have been – she had already used the story to secure a date with her Lt. Parker. In fact she would soon be late, and with a quick pat of her sister’s hand, she ran off.

That suited Claire just fine since she had a date of her own, albeit of a rather different sort. She dressed as if for the coldest day of the year and packed a small bag of snacks and a thermos of warm tea into her bag before hastening out the door herself. She was of course early, but better early than too late. Perhaps he would be as well and they could chat a bit before the hunt.

In the meantime she paced along the edge of the ice until she found the place her heel had cracked it a few days back. It was of course healed, the spiderweb filled in with new ice. The patches would be weaker than the original though. She stomped on it again, then once more. The ice groaned protest as the waves from her impact spread across its surface. Finally she broke through.

Her gloves were warm but she took them off hurriedly anyway and tucked them in a pocket. After this, her fingers would need somewhere nice to return to. The ice chunks bobbing in the shallow water were slippery but had nowhere to go, hemmed in on all sides by shore or their compatriots. She fished one out easily. Its surface burned her fingers but she did not hold it long. With a snap of the wrist she sent it spinning out over the lake like a skipping stone.

It shattered as it hit, shards splintering into a shower of tiny meteorites which glittered in the sun. They slid along the surface, their glass klirr echoing along the distant hills like a carillon playing off tune. She grinned. Skipping rocks took more skill, but ice was more fun.

An hour later, her fingers were numb and the surface of the ice no longer smooth and clean. She regarded the sparkling landscape she had created with satisfaction before looking up at the sun. It was still a few hours early. There was plenty more ice to skip, but she did not think her fingers would agree to it. Perhaps she could make a fire to wait beside? But no, the branches were heavy with snow and their dampness would make them smoke. Maybe no one would notice, but she was loath to explain why she was out here to anyone.

The gentle whisper of someone clearing their throat snapped her out of her considerations. She spun to see the elf waiting patiently a bit to the side. He smiled. A pleasant smile, except for the sharp tips of his teeth poking past his lips. She shivered and quickly wrapped her hands around herself to disguise it as cold.

He took a step towards her, remarking as he approached, “You are early.”

Claire retorted, “So are you.”

He laughed softly and nodded. “Indeed. Things are ahead of schedule. It is good you are here; I thought you would miss it. Are you ready?”

She nodded, though she felt anything but. He turned and motioned to the woods. “My mount is in the trees.” No path cut through the snow but she did not expect one. His feet were once again hovering just above the surface. As she trudged up the gentle hill she wondered if he had forgotten about gravity again, or simply wasn’t bothering now that she knew the truth. She glanced sideways but there was not much to read in that his. A faint smile pinned his lips in place. Pleasant, but cold. Frozen. She looked away.

His mount was a horse, of sorts. Or perhaps a millipede. She tilted her head to the side to regard it. The head was of a horse, and the limbs. There were far too many though, arranged one after the other like legs on a bug. It stood like he did, perching right above the surface of the snow. Thick fuzzy moth antenna poked through its tawny mane, right behind its ears. It neighed softly as he approached to pet its nose gently. She followed him, holding out a hand for it to inspect like she would for one of the village horses. It accepted, snuffling at her palm hopefully for a snack. She rubbed its nose in apology for the empty hand. When she looked up, the elf’s smile had thawed somewhat.

“Where do I sit?” She asked.

He swung up onto the long back and offered a hand. She took it and joined him, nestled between the next pair of leg down from him. “You can hold on to me if you need.” She hesitated but the first jolt of motion as the horse began moving was enough to send her arms wrapped tightly around his waist. He chuckled softly to himself. Her cheeks burned deep red and she thanked the cold for providing an excuse.

He spoke as they rode, calmly and softly as if lulling a child to sleep, “You will have to obey some rules if you want to do this safely. Whatever happens, stay on my mount. She’ll keep you out of danger. And don’t talk to anyone, even if they talk to you. I’ll answer for you, or if for any reason I am not there, just don’t answer. It’ll cause less mess to be rude than to say the wrong thing, trust me. And don’t look the king in the eyes. You’ll know which is him; he’ll have enough gems to decorate the gates to heaven themselves. Understand?”

She thought for a moment then asked, “Can I talk to you?”

He nodded. “Yes, that’s okay. But only me. And my mount I suppose, but don’t expect her to answer.” She laughed nervously. He reassured, “Don’t worry. If you obey the rules, you’ll be fine.”

They fell silent. Even through the strange bundle of layers covering him, she could feel the warmth of his body radiate out. Was that faint fluttering his heart beat? No, that would be silly, she couldn’t possibly feel it. This whole thing was ridiculous really. A wave of panic began welling up in here. What was she doing here even? She had never believed in fairy tales as a kid, why was she getting into one now?

To distract herself from her rising uncertainty, she quickly restarted the conversation. “So, in the stories elves don’t give names right?”

He nodded without looking away from the woods ahead of them. “Yes. Names have power. You’d do best to keep yours quiet as well.”

“Well, okay. But I don’t just want to call you ‘you.’ So… what about fake names? Are those okay?”

For a moment he was silent but then he jerked his head up in a small nod.

“Okay. Then… Based on your interesting relationship with tracks, how about Snow?”

This time he took longer to consider. Finally, another terse nod. He seemed done talking and she let the conversation die.

In the silence, she could hear the sound of animals in the distance. A few turns later they came into view. Remembering his warning, she kept her eyes low. That was still enough to get a sense of the party. There were seven “horses” total, all pure white and taller than Snow’s speckled brown paint. They wore elaborate harnesses covered with glass medallions that jingled as they shifted from foot to foot. The boots hooked into the stirrups were similarly fancy, snake leather dyed in bright gem hues. She forced herself to resist the urge to look up. Meeting the king’s eyes by accident would be a stupid mistake.

She need not have worried. The mounts shifted and what she had previously thought to be a shadow resolved itself into one more, and eighth. Its pelt was ebony. Instead of the rainbow glass, milky moonstones adorned its tackle and dangled from the end of its braided tail. Snow’s breath stopped. The fluttering underneath her fingertips sped up – it really must be his heartbeat. Was he scared of the king? Should she be? Her earlier fear had fled now that they were here, curiosity taking its place.

The king’s voice was honey, thick and deep and melodic like the church pipes in the village. The mild rapprochement in his tone couldn’t make it less pleasant, or less friendly and enticing. She closed her eyes as he spoke to keep herself from searching for his own.

“A guest? Hm.”

The hoofsteps came slowly closer. Snow answered calmly, though she could feel him tremble, “Yes, M’Lord. She is nobody, just the miller’s daughter.”

She could feel the king’s breath as he stopped in front of her. It smelled of spring, warm and inviting. Could she really hurt him? After all, she didn’t even know why her king wanted him caught. Or what kind of person her king even was. The chain in her pocket weighed heavily against her thigh. She didn’t move. A gentle hand caught her chin, tilting it left and right before letting the fingers slide off. “Hmm. She is quite pretty. I see why she wears your scarf. Very well, she may stay.”

Snow breathed out finally. “Thank you, M’Lord.”

The hoof steps retreated. She had missed her chance. Idiot. Perhaps she would get another.

Perhaps you don’t want to, muttered a quiet treacherous voice deep inside her.

The sound of moving horses filled the small glen. Snow’s hand closed over her own and squeezed it gently as he whispered, “Well done.”

He let go and snapped the reigns. They began to move as well. She cautiously opened her eyes, keeping them low. They were at the end of the train. A safe place to stare, thankfully. She leaned to the side to examine the others. All were dressed elaborately, if eclectically. Billowing silks mixed with sashes of dark velvet and bands of embroidered wool. The colors were wild and mismatched, yet beautiful in their own way.

Again Snow seemed out of place. The muted plaid of the scarf she now wore had been his most colorful item. Even the dull orange hat she wore was brighter than his muddy brown one. A thought struck her and she pulled it from her head, letting her hair tumble free. She had made it herself, three years back, so there was little sentimental value attached. Quietly she whispered, “Snow?”

He looked back questioningly, trusting the mount to steer itself.

“Here. Want to trade?”

He stared at her. His face was blank. She wished she could better read his eyes. Was that pain? Anger? Irritation? It was not a pleasant emotion, whatever it was. She didn’t remember anything about elves and gifts in the stories, but maybe there was a rule she didn’t know about? Then again, he had given the first gift.

Finally he moved, taking off his own hat slowly. His hair sprang loose in black curls, punctuated by the tips of sharp ears. That much of the stories was true, then. To her surprise, he gently set the hat on her head before taking her own out of her hands and pulling it on as he spun to face forward again. A soft sigh escaped his lips. Again to her frustration she had no idea how to parse it. Was he upset? She sighed as well.

The hunt wove through the woods, silent except for the bell-like jingling of glass. Birds flitted between the trees, knocking little clumps of snow from the branches as they landed. She murmured the names quietly to herself as they rode, like her mother had once done. “Robin, chickadee, cardinal, crow.” His breath stilled. Was he listening? She kept going, staying quiet and expanding to trees as well. “Elm, white pine, oh, there’s a chipmunk as well. And maple, and the big one is a beech. My dad always jokes that you have to be careful to pronounce its name right around children.”

He laughed quietly and murmured back to her, “I had forgotten humans have names for everything, don’t you.”

She shrugged, “Not really. Those are just… classes of things. You wouldn’t say “people” was a name, would you? Now, if I wanted to, I could name that pine ‘Francis.’ That would count.”

He laughed again. The elf in front of them looked back and he fell silent instantly. Her face was framed by a long silk scarf wrapped loosely around her head like a cowl. It wasn’t a pleasant face. Her eyebrows contorted down and lips curled in anger. Claire ducked her head behind Snow’s body again. He squeezed her hand and muttered quietly, “You’re fine. She can’t hurt you, she’s just mad we’re having fun.”

She kept silent for a while nonetheless, though her eyes kept taking note of the woods around them. A deer watched them pass from the brush. Did the elves not notice it, or were they hunting something else? Sometimes nobles from the castle would drop by to hunt foxes in the wood; perhaps they shared the tradition. The gentry always had dogs though to sniff out the slippery animals and flush them from their dens. But who was to say elves did not have another way.

Time dragged on. Her eyes clouded a bit, then drifted shut. Despite her initial uncertainty, it was surprisingly comfortable on the back of this strange horse. The rocking combined with the warmth from Snow’s back soothed her mind. She should be thinking about what she was going to do about the king, but just at this moment it did not seem all that important.

***

A horn sounded. Claire’s eyes snapped open with a start. She was still on the horse, arms wrapped loosely around Snow’s waist. One of his was curled backwards as well, holding her stable. He glanced back and let it fall as she sat up and blinked the sleep from her eyes.

“Sorry they woke you. I would have warned, but I didn’t think we would find anything today.” His tone was worried and tense. She frowned at the back of his head as he turned away. Shouldn’t the huntsman be glad to find something?

It seemed rude to ask though, so instead she just replied politely, “That’s okay. Thanks for keeping me from falling off.”

They were moving faster now. Wind plucked hairs loose from her hat as she leaned past him to look. The hunt was strung out, the front riders already out of sight through the trees. The horn sounded again. She could feel his muscles tense under his coat as he snapped the reigns. He skillfully steered their mount through the woods, ducking between trees to overtake the others one by one. Finally they reached the head, riding next to the king.

Claire dropped her eyes to the snow quickly lest she accidentally catch his eyes. That was when she saw the prey. Her sister lay on the ground, legs caught in a rope and eyes wild. Claire’s breath caught in her throat. She could manage nothing more than a quiet whisper, “Snow…” He shushed her sharply. She remembered his initial hesitance to let her join the hunt as the cold ice of realization slid down her back. He had known this would happen.

Her eyes scanned the woods. No sign of Abby’s soldier. Had they split for the evening? She hoped not. Then again, even if he was lurking in the woods, there was little he would be able do against the whole party. Maybe it was better if he was already gone.

The king leaned forwards to regard Abby closely. His voice was still honey and kindness as he explained softly, “Hello there little fox. Here are the rules. You run, we follow. You may have a two minute head start. If you make it back to town, you are safe. If not…” He shrugged. Abby just stared at him, eyes wide in fear. Gone was the bravado with which she had proposed capturing the king just yesterday. The king prompted her gently, “Do you understand, little fox?”

Claire knew she had to do something, but not what. She looked around wildly. Snow had a bow lashed to the saddle, but it was unstrung and she was a poor shot anyway. He had a knife too though, sheathed at his belt. Quickly, before fear could overwhelm her, she tugged it free and began to slide from the horse.

Snow spun and caught her arm, hissing sharply, “What are you doing?!”

She met his eyes with a scowl. “Let me go this instant or I’ll give you back your knife.”

Truth be told, she had no notion of how to use a dagger outside of utilitarian purposes like skinning a fish. Her bluff seemed to work though. His eyes clouded with dread and he slowly released her arm. She fell to the ground.

The rest of the hunt had caught up, and they turned as one to look at her. She ignored them and strode forward briskly, approaching the king and faking as much confidence as she could. He was watching as well, and given things could hardly get worse, she raised her chin stubbornly to meet his eyes. Or, as she discovered quickly, his lack thereof. Where eyes should sit were instead nothing but holes. Their dark black depths seemed to call for her to dive into them. His voice called out in her mind, Give yourself over to the night, it will care for you.

A lie of course. She tore her eyes off his and fixed them onto his lips instead. They twisted into a smile as she approached. His honeyed tones greeted her, “A brave one, I see. How may I help you?”

She held the knife out in what she hoped was a threatening pose and demanded, “Let her go.”

The king laughed and replied, as if she were a school child missing the obvious answer, “Of course, my dear. Did you not hear the rules? First the prey is released. How else would we get a chase?”

“You don’t get a chase. Leave her along.”

He leaned forward, his breath whispering uncomfortably on her skin. “Oh? Will you take her place then?”

Her words caught in her throat. If she took Abby’s place, she would die. But… she couldn’t let the same fate befall her sister. She forced air into her lungs and declared, “With one condition. Not only may you not hunt her today, you will not hunt either of us ever again from this point forth.”

His smile widened and he offered her a hand. “I accept your terms. They are small price to pay for a much more interesting chase.”

She reached out her own and shook on it. He turned to look back at Abby and dismissed her with a wave. “You heard the deal, little fox. You live to run another day. Off you go.”

Abby stayed frozen on the ground. Claire snapped to her, “Abby! Run you idiot! Go home!”

The sound of Claire’s voice seemed to snap Abby out of her daze. She scrambled to her feet and took off running through the woods. Claire noted thankfully that she was even headed the right direction.

The king looked to her again. “Do I need to repeat the rules, or are we understood?”

She shook her head. “No. I understand.”

“Good. In that case, your time starts… now.”

Claire froze for a moment as ideas flickered through her head. Going to town was too obvious, but going deeper into the woods took her farther from her goal. In either case the real issue was that they would track her easily, and could move faster. Unless…

She ran towards Snow. A ghost of a smile tickled his lips as she approached. Claire didn’t even bother trying to parse it and instead barked sharply, “Get off. Now.” He made no move to dismount. She yelled desperately, “Snow, I said get off! It’s the least you can do after you brought me here!”

The court gasped. To her surprise, his grin widened. He slid from the horse and interlaced his fingers to offer her a boost up, bowing his head respectfully. “As you wish, M’lady.”

She stepped up quickly and grabbed the reigns. “Come on, let’s go girl.” Relief filled her as the horse obeyed and slid into a quick trot. For now, she turned it towards town. The obvious choice, but now she had a chance of keeping ahead of them.

As she left, she heard the king’s voice behind her. It’s calm surface was crackling, betraying the rage underneath. “Snow?! You let her claim you? You fool!”

She snapped the reigns and urged the horse into a gallop. Snow’s laugh chased her through the woods, bouncing off the trees long after they were out of sight. As she rode, she counted in her head. Two minutes really was not very long at all. The horse was silent but its tackle was not. She shifted carefully off the saddle and drew her knife though the leather strap holding it in place. It slid from the horse’s back faster than she could grab it and she whinnied in displeasure as a pair of her legs stumbled over it. Claire slid forward and pet her neck and whispered, “Sorry girl, I’m done now.”

 One minute left. They were going fast, but the trees were slowing them down. The elves would be more used to riding through the woods than she was; if she couldn’t speed up then having the mount would just delay the inevitable.

To her left she noticed a large snow-covered boulder. It reminded her of the ramps she and her sister had made on their sledding hill when they were younger. She would always pretend they were flying – which was true, for a fraction of a second at least. It was a silly idea, but the horse clearly had an interesting relationship of gravity. That didn’t mean it would work, but she was getting rather desperate…

She tugged the reigns and directed the horse to run full-tilt up the rock. She did not stop when she hit the other end but as Claire had hoped, ran up into the air. She grinned as the horse’s hooves cleared the treetops and clawed their way into the sky. This was far better than a sled flight. She rubbed the horse’s neck in thanks and looked around.

The view was splendid. Sunlight sparkled off the snow-covered trees, somehow giving the white more depth and color than seemed possible. In the distance, the mountains shimmed purple. Only one thing was missing.

The town.

She spun to peer in all directions. No sign of it. No sign of the lake either. Just endless woods stretching to the distant peaks.

Claire bit her lip. Town should be roughly south. She nudged the horse back to their original path. At least they were heading about the right direction. Or, at least, the right direction to where it should be. She scanned the woods ahead for anything that might indicate people. Smoke, felled trees, the peak of a roof. Nothing. It was all gone.

Time must be up by now. They would be following her. She could do nothing but ride though at this point. Being in the sky would make her more visible, but hopefully the speed was worth it. Her eyes roamed over the woods below, hunting for any sign of home or pursuit.

Suddenly the horse screamed. She looked around wildly. Another rider had just crested the trees behind them, bow in hand. Claire started falling. Blood streamed past her as the horse cried in pain. The ground was rising fast. She squeezed her eyes shut and braced herself for impact.

At the last moment the horse rallied, slowing them somewhat before collapsing to the ground heavily. Claire’s leg was pinned under it. She pushed and shoved, trying to move the mound of warm flesh holding it in place. The sound of bells was getting closer. The horse was just too heavy. Even the panicked strength of fear of death was not enough to budge it.

The bells stopped. A ring of elves surrounded her. Snow rode to the side of the king. His lips were set in a thin line, eyes wet and pleading. Claire looked away, fixing her gaze on the king instead. He clapped slowly and congratulated her, “Ah a good run. You are quite a clever one for a human. Alas, it appears we have won this round.” He drew a silver sword from a saddle sheath and dismounted. “Don’t worry, I will make this quick.”

Claire stalled desperately, “Wait, don’t I get last words?”

The king sighed. “A very human tradition. But I suppose, if you must.”

She took a deep breath, and found her eyes inevitably drawn to Snow again. He looked close to tears and she wondered what his heartbeat would feel like now were she still holding his waist. What had he been planning? She couldn’t believe he had brought her here to die. There must be some way out, something she could do, a trick she was missing.

The king looked impatient. She spoke slowly as her mind tore through memories trying to find the key, “Thank you, that is most gracious.” Finally she found it, a glimmer of hope. She took a deep breath and prayed her gambit would work as she stated firmly, “I name you Ice.”

The king recoiled. “You can’t.”

A grin spread across her face and she declared, “I can, and I have. You are Ice, beautiful to look at but cold to the core. Snow at least has some warmth to it but you, you have none.”

He took another step back, the holes of his eyes locked on her face. Her smile widened and she stacked as much imperious confidence she could to command, “Now then, Ice. You have a job to do. You will leave, and never hunt humans again. If you need your sport, you will chase deer or other non-sentient beasts. Understood?”

His face twisted into an angry scowl but slowly, as if dragged by an invisible force, he nodded. His legs took him to his horse and he swung back into the saddle. As he took the reigns, he hissed, “This isn’t the end.”

She laughed. “Oh, it is. If you come back, if I ever see you again, why, I’ll march you straight to the King’s Guard myself. Now leave before I decide to do it now!”

He spun his horse around with a snap of the reigns and galloped into the woods. The others followed hastily, hooves clawing noiselessly at the air. Soon only Snow remained.

He laughed softly, weight dropping from his shoulders. “He is right about one thing, you are a clever woman. Shall I help you out from under there?”

She nodded. “Yes, please.”

He slid off the white mount he had borrowed and came over to crouch by her and lay a hand on his horse’s flank. “She was a good girl.”

Claire nodded. “I’m sorry.”

He sighed and shook his head. “Don’t be. She died doing something heroic. I think it’s how she would have wanted to go.” He shifted and slid his hands under. “On three, okay? One, two, three!” With a heave, he lifted the horse just enough for her to slip free. She got to her feet unsteadily.

“Do you want to make her a pyre?”

He shook his head. “Wait.”

She fell silent. After a minute, the tips of the horse’s fur began to glow with soft orange fire. It spread rapidly down to its core, leaving nothing behind but sparks dancing in the air. Claire began to shiver as the adrenaline left her empty and exhausted. Snow reached over and took her hand. “Come on, I’ll take you home.”

They rode in silence. Despite the illusion she had been caught in earlier, they were actually quite close. Ten minutes later they stood at the edge of the clearing around her father’s mill. Claire slid reluctantly out of the saddle and looked up at him. He smiled down at her and for once she understood his eyes. Sadness, longing. She asked softly, “Snow, what’s your real name?”

He shook his head and answered, “I don’t know. I lost it long ago. It doesn’t matter though, Snow will do just as well.”

She thought of his appearance, his horse, his kindness. “You’re not one of them, are you.”

He shrugged and looked away. She bit her lip. Fairy tales all ended he same way in books didn’t they? It was stupid, but no more ridiculous than commanding an elf king just on the power of a made-up name. Maybe she just making excuses for what she wanted to do anyway. Did it matter?

 She swung back onto the horse and he turned to look back at her in surprise. She kissed him.

He smiled as they broke apart. His teeth were smooth and perfect, no hint of fangs. The blue of his eyes was still strange – their color must come from being a foreigner, not an elf. It suited him though.

Claire grinned triumphantly and slid back to the ground. She quipped cheerfully, “I’m getting good at this fairy-tale nonsense aren’t I?” He laughed and nodded.

An awkward silence descended before he asked the question she couldn’t find the right words for. “May I, uh, may I see you again?”

She smiled and nodded. “Yes, I think I would like that. How about Friday, at noon? By the lake? I can bring us a picnic.”

He met her smile and bent down to kiss the top of her head before riding back into the woods. She watched until the sound of bells faded to nothing but the whisper of the wind. Smile still on her lips, she went home.

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Fantasy

The Mirror Of Midnight

Midnight is when lives split.

We were warned about it from a young age. People are only meant to live in small chunks, one day at a time. Stay up too late, cross that boundary between one day and the next with your eyes open and your mind alert, and who knew what would happen.

I did of course. Absolutely nothing. It was clearly just a ghost story the grownups told children to get them in bed at a reasonable hour, and they themselves only went to bed because at a certain age, you start getting tired earlier than you used to. Besides, what about time zones? It was changing between one day and the next constantly, somewhere in the world. Midnight shouldn’t be any more special than twelve noon. I had looked it up once; if it was noon here it would be midnight for Ryelestan. If I was one of their citizens, which counted?

I never tried it though. When your parents and everyone else tells you something your whole life, even something ridiculous, it eats its way into your psyche. So I went to bed on time, slept well, and never found out if I was right.

Until, that was, I met Lily.

***

You knew she was a strange woman from the moment you laid eyes on her. Her hair was dyed midnight blue, with contact lenses to match. If you looked closely, you would see tiny silver stars flecking the irises. Few ever got that close though. She exuded an aura of danger that kept people out of arms reach. That was what first drew my eyes to her actually. Finirie’s was crowded, as it always was on a Friday night during finals week, full of students taking their minds off the upcoming exams – and much else judging by the number of empty shot glasses littering the tables. She, however, was surrounded by empty stools on either side. An island of calm in the sea of people.

Her hands were curled around her beer as she stared at the painting hanging behind the bar. It wasn’t particularly good, but she seemed fascinated. I ordered myself a cider and slid into a corner to watch.

Those days, people watching was one of my main hobbies. I wasn’t terribly social in the best of time – if I went to a party, I’d inevitably spend more time just with the host’s cat than all the humans combined. I liked the feeling of being around people though, the sense of community. So I went. And I watched.

I spent my first cider trying to figure out why she was so intimidating. Black jeans, blue halter top, black leather jacket, matching boots – a bit of a biker chick vibe, but not too far off of what some others in the bar were wearing. Silver fan earrings and a simple necklace finished it off. A good date night look really. Idly I wondered if she was waiting for someone. That would certainly be interesting.

By the time I made it halfway through my second, I thought I had figured it out. She was just too intense. Not necessarily her bearing – though that was uncommonly focused as well – but her colors. Her hair was too blue, her jacket too inky. It was like someone had turned up the saturation dial just on her and left everyone else in the room drab by comparison.

By the time I finished my cider, I had a new theory.

It was the knife hilt sticking out of her left boot.

The instant I turned eighteen, I moved six hours from home to make it on my own, convinced my guitar and a knack for making up lyrics on the spot would be enough. After more nights on the street than I would ever tell my mother about, it had sort of worked. I had played a gig at Finirie’s just last week in fact. Mind you, most of the money I made still came from flipping burgers. Just for now though. Having a flat to crash in was worth the persistent smell of french fries, at least until I got my music off the ground.

I could have gone to school like the fifty students cramming the bar, but it felt too much like giving up. Besides, living on the street for a bit was instructive. You quickly learned a lot about what places folks wouldn’t bother you, where you could get a cheap shower, which parks the cops wouldn’t notice you taking a dump in. And you learned how to identify and avoid trouble.

The woman at the bar with the knife in her boot was clearly trouble.

Unfortunately, I am also a bit of an idiot.

Especially two drinks in.

When the barkeep passed me my third, I slid onto one of the empty stools next to her.

Her eyes met mine. They were bright and curious. A faint smile tugged her lips and she nodded greeting. I nodded back but didn’t say anything. Now would be the time to drop a line, something witty and charming. Under the scrutiny of those strange eyes my thoughts fled though, and all I could do was stare.

She started the conversation after a beat, seeming more amused than off-put by my rudeness. “So, what can I do for you Mr. Rock-Star?”

I stared at her. Had she seen my set? I felt like I would have noticed her in the crowd, but it had been a packed tight that night. My self-preservation instincts finally kicked me to give a weak response, “I, well, uhm. I thought you looked interesting and wanted to say hi?”

She laughed. “I’ll say. You near about burned a hole in my jacket watching.”

My cheeks began to burn. This was not going at all how I had hoped. I scooped up my drink and gave her an apologetic smile. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to be a creep. I’ll get out of your way.” I didn’t look at her face as I hurried off into the crowd, depositing the mostly full bottle on the nearest table before scurrying out the door.

The warm spring air stank of exhaust and urine as I walked towards my flat. Finirie’s was a dive, but at least it was close to home. I could barely afford to rent, let alone the sub fare to somewhere with nicer pubs. Besides, the drinks were cheaper in my end of town. The people tended to be more interesting too, if you liked bar fights.

As I walked, I consoled myself. The bar would be closing soon anyway, it was already 10:30. It wasn’t like we would have had much time to converse. I unlocked the door to my one-room flat and sighed. Even if it had gone well, I was hardly going to bring a girl back here. It was for the better I had crashed and burned.

Still, as I stretched out on my air mattress, her face floated behind my closed eyes.

I ignored it and fell asleep.

***

At first I thought the noise was just my neighbor hammering on the walls again. I wasn’t sure what he was doing that made so much ruckus, but I knew I didn’t want to find out. The second time it came, I figured it out. A knock, on my door. I tossed the blankets to the side and pulled on last night’s pants before crossing the room to peer through the peephole.

It was her. I pinched myself. Not dreaming. If I was being more careful, I would have stopped to wonder how she got there. Pretty girls make my decisions even worse though, and instead I just wrenched open the door.

She stared me up and down and I realized belatedly that I probably should have put on a shirt too. I was too busy staring at her to be embarrassed though. Blood ran down her face from a cut on her forehead, one eye was blackened, her jacket was gone and her other clothes torn and dirty. The dagger had migrated out of her boot to her belt.

“What… what happened to you?”

She sighed. “Long story. Sorry for just showing up here. I don’t actually know anyone else in the city. I… I just moved here. Sort of. I don’t have a flat yet. Like I said, long story.”

I flicked my light on and stood to the side. “Well, it’s not much but I’ve at least got a bathroom in the back where you can clean up.”

She stepped through with a small smile. “Thanks. Just to be clear, there is no chance I’m sleeping with you. Try it, and I’ll make sure you remember. Got it?”

I nodded tiredly. “Why don’t you shower. Door locks from the inside. Actually, first.” I went to the cardboard box that served as my dresser and pulled out a clean shirt, sweat pants, and a pair of boxers. “Here. We can wash your stuff in the morning.” She took them slowly and backed to the bathroom. I heard the lock click as she shut herself in.

I peered at the clock on my stove. Three A.M. I was never a night person and even with a armed stranger in the place, I wanted nothing more than to go to bed. Instead I forced myself to move, first locking the front door again before pulling down a pot and starting some water on the boil. My mug was dirty so I gave it a quick scrub before tossing in a coffee bag and dousing it. It was a far cry from real coffee, but at least it was hot.

I set it to the side and made my bed quickly. A gentleman wouldn’t let the lady sleep on the floor, and I somehow doubted she would agree to sharing a bed platonically. I tossed a sweatshirt against the far wall for a pillow and stretched out on the floor. It was still much comfier than the streets – being warm and dry would do an astonishing amount for your enjoyment of the world. The rushing of the shower was soothing. It reminded me of sleeping under the metal roof at my parents’ house when the summer monsoons came through. Despite myself, I drifted off to sleep.

***

When I woke up, it took a moment to remember why I was on the floor. I sat up. She was still there, blankets hiding everything except one foot and the long fan of her hair. Part of me was surprised she had stayed, but then again a place to crash was what she had asked for. I got up and picked a new outfit out of my box – my last clean one, I’d have to do laundry a day early thanks to her – and hopped into the shower myself.

She was still asleep when I got out. I looked at the clock. Quarter til seven. My shift started soon and my boss had made it pointedly clear that if I was late again, I’d be looking for a new job. I glanced back at her and sighed. I didn’t have anything to leave a note with, but I left out a bowl next to a bottle of milk and the last of my cheerios. Hopefully she got the message and had some breakfast before vanishing. With one last look back, I ran to work.

The day dragged by. When I returned, she was gone. She had washed the bowl and left it to air dry in the sink, folded my clothes, and made the bed. On the counter lay a twenty and nothing else. I wasn’t surprised but I felt the loss nonetheless. Nice of her to leave me something though. I pocketed the money and picked up my guitar to sing the melancholy away.

***

It was months before I saw her again. I watched closely at the bar when I went, even asked the barkeep after her once. Nothing. Slowly I began to give up on seeing her again. Part of me wasn’t even sure why I tried – the woman was danger after all. Still, I wanted to.

And then, suddenly, I did. Not at the bar, but in an alley. The glint of her hair caught my eye. I paused. She was asleep, laying against the wall. Her arms were still bare, thinner than I remembered. Quickly I scanned the alley. No one else there. I crouched by her and set a gentle hand on her shoulder. “Hey.”

She sprang up, pushing the point of her knife against my neck. Fear raced across her face, followed a beat later by recognition. She let the knife fall and asked with confusion, “What are you doing here?”

I shrugged. “I’d ask the same of you. You alright?”

She nodded sharply. “Yes. Just fine.”

I arced an eyebrow. She looked like she hadn’t eaten enough in weeks. I would not have been surprised if she hadn’t showered since we last met. Her eyes locked with mine, flinty and determined as she stared me down. I shrugged again and looked away, willing to try a different tact for the sake of her pride. “Glad to hear it. I’ve been looking for you, you know. The way I see it, you owe me a story after last time. I had to run to work before I got it, so why don’t we grab a bite and you can tell me what’s up?”

Her eyes were suspicious but the lure of food was enough to overcome any hesitance. She nodded. I stood and offered her a hand up. She ignored it.

The burger joint I worked at was just down the street. It was hardly health food, but it was cheap and plentiful. I myself used the employee discount probably more than I should. I had her wait outside and got us a large bag of goodies.

“My place or the park?”

She hesitated and then muttered quietly, “Park.”

I nodded and led us there, picking a bench to spread out our feast on. “Dig in.”

For a while we ate in silence. I chewed slowly while food vanished under her fingers. I had bought far more than twice what I would get for myself. True to my expectation, there were no leftovers.

When she finished, she launched immediately into a question, “Do you know what happens when you stay out past midnight?”

It was an odd thing to start the conversation with. I shrugged. “Nothing I would expect. The stories don’t make much logical sense. But, I can’t say I’ve stayed up that late myself.”

“They’re true. You split. You suddenly are looking back at yourself, only it isn’t really yourself. A different version of you, subtly.” She picked a few crumbs off the wrapper, giving me a chance to say something. I didn’t. She continued, “And at the end of the night, only one of you can stay. It’s supposed to be the… well, the normal one. The one that started the night. But, the ones from. Wherever we come from. Well, we’re stronger. And sometimes we win.”

She looked up at me. To my surprise, tears glittered in the corners of her eyes. “I replaced her. I’m not supposed to be here. Everyone knows I don’t belong. They chased me from my home. People I – she? – people I have memories of as my friends, hating me now. Because I killed their friend. I…”

She dropped her head to stare at the bench, jostling a few tears to splash down onto it. I set a hand on her shoulder. At that point, I wasn’t sure if she was crazy or not. All I knew was the obvious – she was exhausted, filthy, and half starved. That at least was something I could help with. “Hey. Come on, first thing’s first. Let’s go back to my flat and get you cleaned up. Promise I won’t try anything; your knife is damn sharp.”

I said the last as a joke and to my relief she laughed before agreeing, “Okay.”

***

A few hours later she was asleep on my bed, again. She slept with the knife cradled close to her chest like a teddy bear. I wondered idly how long she had carried it, and how many times she had cut herself in her sleep before learning to keep it clear of her skin. A sheath would be smarter, or just leaving it close by on the floor.

I wasn’t about to say so though.

I leaned forward to glance at the clock and then let my back fall against the wall again. It was eleven. Normally I would be going to bed right now. I certainly felt tired enough. But, well. I wanted to know the truth. She was probably crazy, just some girl with a love of loud colors and not much left in her head. Nothing would happen if I met the new day. It wasn’t much of a risk.

I was still nervous of course, maybe even scared. So many had warned me against it. Parents – to keep the kids in line – national curfew – to curb protests against a corrupt government – even friends.

I would do it anyway though.

Decided, I got up and made a coffee to help keep myself awake and alert until midnight.

***

At first I thought nothing had happened. Then I saw him, standing in the shadow by the door. Our eyes met, his as wide and surprised as my own. He hesitantly walked the few steps over and crouched in front of me. It was like looking in a mirror, but a mirror with a bad sense of color. His hair was a dusty orange, eyes tinted to match. His clothes looked like they were from one of those silly fashion shows; all the angles sewn too sharp and the colors wild and outlandish. His face was my own though, with expression to match. We stared.

I shook myself free first, speaking quietly so as not to wake her, “Hi. You uh. You want a cup of coffee?”

Relief flashed across his face and he nodded. “Yeah. Please.”

I got up and dumped my mug, taking my time washing it and boiling up some more water so I could think.

The stories were right. How? No, that wasn’t the right question for now. He was here, the question to ask was what to do about it. I glanced back at him. He was sitting cross-legged on my makeshift bed, at the far end from where I had been. His eyes were unfocused. Lost in thought. Probably asking the same questions I was. Maybe we could talk it out? After all, he was… well, me.

I brought back the mug and set it next to him before sitting on my side of the bed. He took it with a strained smile. “Thanks.” I nodded. We sat in silence, both trying not to stare at the other too much.

Finally I asked, “So. Where do you… come from?”

He frowned and thought a moment before answering. “Well, I am not sure. I remember… here. All of it. Childhood, moving out, her, deciding to see what happened. But… I think it’s pretty clear you’re the one who belongs here.”

He said the last without malice but still I winced. He gave me a sympathetic smile. Of course he knew what I would be thinking. Messing with another sentient being – another me – was not in the plan. Neither of us had expected it to work. I sighed. “I guess if you have my memories, you don’t actually know any more than I do huh.”

“I’m afraid not. I didn’t expect this to work.” I laughed and he joined briefly before continuing, “That said… I’m not going to fight you to stay or anything. It wouldn’t be right.”

My smile fled and I nodded grim assent. “I don’t know how you get back. I guess we’ll find out together.”

He nodded back.

A thought struck me and I added, “We could do an experiment though. Want me to try again tomorrow night?”

“Hm an interesting idea. Sure. I wonder if I remember this conversation from your perspective or mine.”

I smiled. He mirrored me. Both of us yawned.

“The downside of course is that we have to stay up until something happens to know… Well. What happens,” I remarked ruefully. “Want to play cards?”

He nodded and I pulled a deck out of my backpack. I didn’t have to ask what games he knew, or even which he wanted to play. Instead I just dealt and we got on with it.

The night dragged on. Our yawns grew more frequent but we pushed each other onward. Finally, as the first sun peeked through the windows, he vanished.

There were no sound effects, no splash of sparkles like movies had led me to subconsciously expect. Just there one minute, gone the next. His cards drifted slowly down onto the blanket. An ace of spades and a couple face cards. Good timing; he would have won the next hand.

I looked up to the clock and groaned. Work started in a hour. My mind was raw from lack of sleep but I suspected if I tried to nap, I would doze right through my alarm. Instead I made yet another cup of coffee and drank it slowly as I tried to get my thoughts in order. It hardly worked. Sleep deprivation isn’t known for helping one deal with world-view changing events. For now I gave up. I could think later.

I finished my tea and pulled out the small notebook I had bought after the last time she visited. Gone to work, be back at four. I set it by her bed and then I left, heading into what would undoubtedly be a long day.

***

She was still there when I slouched exhausted back through the door. I had honestly expected her to vanish again. The food I had brought home for supper wouldn’t be enough for both of us. For now I tossed her the bag and made myself a coffee instead. I could go back out later.

A hamburger and half the fries had vanished by the time I brought my mug over and sat on the other end of the air mattress. Her eyes followed me suspiciously but she did not slow her eating by grabbing for the knife laying on the bed next to her. I sipped my coffee and waited for her to finish.

She gulped down the last of the fries and muttered quietly, “Thank you. I feel much better than last night.”

I grinned. “Yeah I bet. Food, a shower, and a good place to sleep will do that to you. I’ve been there; I remember.”

She smiled back tiredly. “Yes, it is nice. I uh. I suppose we should talk?”

I wanted nothing more. All day my mind had swirled with questions I could ask to compare our experience – though I had not yet decided if I would tell her about mine quite yet. Still, I restrained my enthusiasm. She looked exhausted, and scared. Now wasn’t the time. Instead of starting on my list, I just shrugged, “If you want to. We could start with something easy though – what’s your name?”

“Lily. Or Lily Number Two?”

It was a weak joke, but I smiled encouragingly anyway and answered, “Let’s go with Lily. The other is a bit of a mouthful. I’m Jason.”

She smiled back weakly and fell silent. I let her and slowly worked my way through the coffee. My own mind was worn out enough anyway. Lily still hadn’t spoken by the time I reached the dredges in the bottom of my mug. I got up and set it on the counter before stretching out on my makeshift bed.

“If you don’t mind, I am going to take a nap. It’s been a long day. Some idiot broke the ice cream machine at work again.” I rolled my eyes and heaved a dramatic sigh, but my theatrics didn’t even make her smile. She simply nodded, eyes unfocused and unseeing. There was nothing I could do to help until she was ready to talk, so I let myself slip gratefully into sleep.

***

I woke with a start to a touch on my shoulder. Lily was crouched next to me, eyes wide and watery. The clock said eleven. I sat up slowly in case she had the knife ready and whispered, “What’s wrong?”

“I need to go home.”

I nodded and fumbled in the pocket of my jeans for some cash to offer her. “Here. It isn’t going to get you very far, but it’ll be enough for a bus ticket maybe, or at least some food for the road.”

She shook her head and closed my fingers over the bills. “No, I mean. Back where I came from. I’m only here because… Well, I shouldn’t be here. So… I want to try again. Maybe if I stay up, she’ll come back? And we can fix this.”

Tears were wobbling at the corners of her eyes but they didn’t fall. A gentleman would have had a handkerchief to offer her – my dad certainly would have said as much – but unfortunately I was a poor gentleman. Instead I offered, “I’ll stay up with you.”

She shook her head vehemently. “No! I can’t let you get stuck like I did.”

I cursed myself for not telling her earlier. Now was not the best time, but I was hardly going to get another one. “I will be fine. I… I stayed up last night and met mine. He is pretty much just like me. We just played cards all night. We were actually planning on meeting again tonight, to test some things.”

She stared at me. Finally she said flatly, “You’re an idiot.”

I grinned weakly. “Well, yes. But being an idiot got me to help you despite the ten foot flashing neon danger signs. So… it has its upsides?”

She stared at me for a moment longer and then laughed. Stress and relief warred across her face as she clutched her sides and just lost if for a few minutes. I couldn’t help but smiling as I watched. Finally she gathered herself and agreed, “Alright, fine. We stay up together.”

“Good. Make yourself comfy, I’ll get you a coffee.”

We didn’t talk, but the time still passed quickly. She settled to sit down next to me and offered to share her drink. We drained it slowly from opposite sides of the mug. It had been a while since I had gotten to enjoy this quiet companionship, the peace of being with someone yet not needing to talk or do anything in particular. I think she felt the same. When the clock clicked onto midnight, I was almost sad our wait was over.

My clone appeared where he had before. He looked the same as last time, though the surprise was gone and replaced with a serious expression instead.

Hers didn’t show.

For a moment the three of us stood still. I opened my mouth to greet my clone but was cut off when she suddenly let out a furious scream. She was already halfway across the room by the time we realized she was moving. My clone figured it out before I did, or maybe he just had a better angle to see the knife in her hand. He tried to sidestep but she was faster.

His quiet gasp of pain seemed louder even than her shriek. His eyes glazed as he opened his mouth to speak. No words came out. As quietly as he had the previous night, he vanished.

The knife clattered to the floor, blade perfectly clean and shining faintly under the bare bulb hanging from my ceiling. She fell to her knees as well. Tears started running down her cheeks, then pouring in a waterfall as she began to sob. I just stared, too in shock to do anything more. Her voice was just barely audible as she whispered, almost more to herself than me, “I’m sorry. I had to. I killed her, he would have done the same to you. It was him or us. I had to.”

The numbness that had seized hold of me shattered. My voice jittered with anger, and fear, as I said, “You meant you literally killed her. I just- I thought you just changed places. You. You’re a murderer. Twice. You killed me.”

She struggled to her feet, shaking her head, “No, you don’t understand. He had to-”
I cut across her, “He wasn’t you! He was me. He was a chill bro. We played cards for gods sake, that isn’t something you do with- you know, maybe it is for you. You’re right, I don’t understand. Just-” I broke off, staring at the knife on the floor. Just what? I couldn’t do anything to help him, or to stop her. There wasn’t a body to show the cops, or even any blood. Exhaustion welled up in my mind and I continued dully, “Just leave. Okay? Just go.”

She didn’t look surprised, or hurt. Steel had descended into her eyes and her backbone. With a curt nod, she walked out the door. The knife stayed on the floor. I didn’t pick it up.

***

I stayed up again the next night of course, but my clone didn’t show.

At least now I knew the truth. When you stay up until midnight, nothing happens.

At least not anymore.

Not for me.

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Fantasy

The Sage’s Cairn

The sage had tremendous magic. Many a man had compared him to a god. Hundreds had begged boons of him, pleading and screaming if he declined. He had stopped offering, then stopped showing his power altogether. An old man with good advice had power enough – especially when he had seen the same ten years repeat themselves over and over again.

That power had also lost its appeal over time. What was the point of fighting the inevitable? He still fought it sometimes though, struggled against the prison he had placed himself in. Most cycles though, he no longer bothered. The world would end just the same. Unlike the others around him – he had tried to warn them but they had called him crazy and laughed – unlike the others around him, he knew time was short. Just ten years to build a life, only to have it wiped away. Not much time.

It had taken him a few cycles but that was okay. Age only caught up to him slowly and back then, he had still been spry and handsome. So was the man who, five cycles in a row, became his husband. His name was Johan and his smile shone like the sun. The sage had never told him the world was ending, just reveled in the few years they had. Even their occasional fights and arguments were treasured, precious memories he hoarded and kept tightly in his mind.

Johan always died on the same day, the 12th of May. Two weeks before the world would end. The first time, the sage had broken down, screamed for him to wake up. Now he just sat on the edge of their bed, holding his hand, watching him sleep with his sweet innocent smile until his heart stopped. He never suffered. The two weeks saved him from that, and the sage was grateful.

He buried his love under the cherry tree. It’s petals drifted down onto the cairn he built over the broken sod, rock by rock. His heart bled but none of the pain showed in his hands as they moved, steady, about their task. At the end he poured his magic into the rocks, begging. Stay next time. For me.

It never worked. Every cycle he first approached Johan’s house – one day to be their house – from the back. The rocks were gone, stuck in the future but also the past. He plucked a branch off the blooming cherry and brought it with him, offering it to the man opening the back door, confused and a little scared of this stranger standing on his stoop. The life they lived together would change every time, but the sage like to keep the beginning. His little ritual. He smiled and offered the flowers with a bow.

***

He wept again. The pain of losing him was great, even if he knew it would only be a month before they saw each other. It was not the same though. His Johan was dead, dead five times over. He could return to the house, start it all over, but the man he met would not know him. One day he wouldn’t even care for this slowly aging man. The sage did not think he could bear that day.

Still he returned to the house, always from the back. He paused. The cairn had stayed this time, old and mossy and half buried under years of fallen petals. It knew he must move on. The door clicked open behind him as he left. He could imagine the confusion on Johan’s face but he did not look back lest his will crumble. His lover would find someone new. And as for himself…

He wandered. For fifty years he had a path, a life waiting for him. For another fifty before he had a goal, a driving need to stop the end. And now… nothing. He tilted his head up to the sky, letting the cool breeze blow across his skin. In his first life, before the cycles started, he had been a court mage. Pinned under the weight of responsibility and duty from the time he was six, first at the academy and later in the halls of his king. He had never travelled beyond the borders of his home, never even seen the ocean. The unknown called to him, and he went.

***

He had long noticed that small things changed each cycle. The baker was wearing a green dress instead of blue when the butcher’s son proposed. There were six ravens on the church tower when the major died instead of five. Big events always followed the same course, but the small, the daily, the inconsequential: that shifted like quicksilver. He made a game of picking out changes, like the picture books of his youth but on the scale of a town.

The sea though.

The sea was something else.

A storm would blow in out of nowhere, even though last time he had travelled their passage had been smooth and calm. Waves smashed into their hull, but then the next time they were becalmed and had to wait a week for a breeze. Each time was new, and he loved it. After years of knowing what came next, at least approximately, he finally had not the slightest clue.

The passage took between a month and seven weeks, always different each of the six times he did it. Originally he had planned a different route, a different ship, each cycle. But he had fallen in love with the Adrestia, its captain, and its crew. The captain was a burly old seaman with a beard big enough to hide an armada in. He loved dancing. Each evening the deck would be cleared and lanterns put out, the first mate would play his fiddle and Petey his harmonica, and the whole crew would dance. The captain always said dancing was the best way to clear out the cobwebs of the past and the sage was inclined to agree.

At the end of each passage, the captain would pull him aside. Some professions bred people with perhaps not a mage’s full stare into the other side, but at very least a glimpse, a twitch aside of the curtain of reality. Smiths working late into the witching hour, gravekeepers watching over the dead, midwives seeing to the new life, and of course old sailors who had seen the face of death and the face of the sea – often the same – one too many times. Their conversation shifted subtly each time, but roughly went:

“I’ve seen you before.” It wasn’t a question when the captain said it, but rather a statement of fact. The first passage, the mage had been confused. Now he just nodded. The captain continued, “And I reckon I’ll see you again eh?” Another nod. The captain was considering, drumming his fingers on the rail they both leaned against. “Well, I don’t know what you’re running from but I hope it don’t catch you. And I hope you find something worth having out there.” He gestured to the thin line of darkness marking the distant shore.

The sage nodded and quietly agreed, “Me too.”

***

Of course, the sage did not rightly know what he was looking for in this new land. That did not particularly bother him though. There were new things to see, new people, and that was enough. Strange that it had taken the end of his world to push him out of the little shell he had forced himself to make home in. Each time his foot first tapped the dock he smiled. The ground seemed to move under him, body still trying to compensate for the motion of the ship he had left.

After a minute the dizziness faded and he stepped forward, threading his way among the sailors moving boxes and crates and barrels from here to there. The docks ended in a wide cobbled street that ran around the rim of the harbor. Traffic was thick. With no destination in mind, his method of picking was just to let himself be taken along with the crush of people until something interesting caught his eye. He had stopped to speak with an interesting old woman, ducked into a tavern thanks to the smell of its wine, eaten at an outlandish restaurant… Each time he started a new venture into the unknown.

This time it was a flash of red that grabbed his attention. Had he not noticed it any of the other cycles, or had it been a different, duller color? He did not know. The uncertainty, the newness, dragged his smile wider on his face. This would be a perfect start to the new cycle. He ducked into the alley.

It was a dirty town for sure, at least compared to his home. There, minor mages had swept the streets daily with water, pushing all the refuse of thousands of lives into the gutters and out of the city. Here it stank. Especially in the alleys. A dead rat lay against one wall, partially eaten and putrescent. He pulled up his shirt to cover his nose as he passed, forcing his eyes away before he saw more than he wanted to. A man lay a bit further. Here he paused, checked the man was still breathing, moved on. It had been years since he learned that magic wouldn’t let you save everyone. Still his heart twinged.

Red flashed in his peripheries again and he let it draw his mind away. It was high, higher than a person. A bird perhaps? A cardinal would be too small though, and he did not know of a bird so bright other than that. He continued.

The alleys bled into each other. In the bright light of day they were deserted expect for the occasional sleeper, but he knew they must come alive at night. Curiosity had driven him to once learn thieves symbols. He read them off the walls as he passed. Honest Fence Here. Prostitutes – Good and Cheap. Nice Man Sick Son Don’t Rob. There were no street signs here, no door numbers. All there were was the codes, a record scratched into the walls.

He turned a corner and finally got a clear view of the red. A small dragon, cat sized. Something was clutched in its paws. An orange maybe? It dove towards a raggedy looking girl. He cried out warning. The dragon pulled up to land on her shoulder peacefully. Both looked at him in confusion. His cheeks burned. A pet. Not a threat at all. Strange, but then again house cats were wild hunters as well.

The girl was talking to the dragon now. Perhaps it was more intelligent than a cat, or maybe she had just lacked a friend for so long that the animal made a passable substitute. He stepped forward slowly, hands held in gesture of peace. They continued staring as he drew closer. Then he heard it, quiet. The dragon was speaking back.

“-used to be a soldier. Still looks strong. It’s a bad idea.”

The sage paused. Were they discussing mugging him? It was a terrible idea, though not for the reason they thought at least. Well. Not entirely. He was still a good swordsman as well.

Her voice was quiet as she murmured back, “We need the money. Do you have any other ideas?”

The dragon was quiet but the sage took the opportunity to slide into the conversation. “You could just ask politely.”

She stared at him. Her eyes were blue, but a harsher blue than Johan’s had been. If his were the clear blue skies of fall, hers were the stormy tumultuous ones of winter. He smiled. Finally she addressed him, with surprising force and firmness after her huddled whispers to the dragon. “Would it work?”

He shrugged and hooked his thumbs into his pockets. “You won’t know until you try. And what is there to lose? I would advise explaining what you need the money for, though.”

She wanted to run, he could tell that based on the tension jittering up and down her legs. She stayed though, and thought before answering. “My mother is sick. I need to buy her medicine.”

A lie? Quite possibly. “Take me to her.” The dragon growled. She glared at him. He narrowed his eyes as he met hers. They were scared, not angry. Perhaps it was the truth. Still. “Quit giving me that look child. I was a healer back in the army. I may be able to help.”

She hid her feelings phenomenally poorly. He could see the debate raging in her before finally she nodded. “Fine. But if you try anything…”

He just nodded, not prideful enough to point out what they both knew. She would not stand a chance in a fight against him.

It was not a house she led him to but a corner of alley. A woman sat huddled under a threadbare cloak. Her breath whistled as it passed out her mouth, and her shoulders trembled from the cold. As they approached she looked up, eyes unseeing and milky. The sage forced his face to be still though inside he wanted to scream at the cruelty of the world. The girl crouched. Side by side they looked nothing alike. Adopted perhaps. She took the woman’s hands and started talking quietly, “Ma, I brought someone who might be able to help. He was a healer in the army. Isn’t that nice Ma?”

Again her voice had changed, soft but capable and calm. A chameleon voice. He crouched next to her. She cringed away sharply. He pretended not to notice as he spoke to the woman, “Good evening Ma’am. Is it okay if I try to help you? I am a mage so this won’t hurt, but it may feel a bit unpleasant. Some people say it is like insects crawling on them, others mice.”

She laughed, dry and raspy. “I’ve had both mage-boy. It won’t bother me none.”

He set a gentle hand on her head and closed his eyes. Her hair crackled under his touch, grime holding it in place more than any connection to her scalp. Unpleasant sensations were no stranger for him either though. He simply registered the feeling and moved on, letting his magic drop gently down into her body.

The first sign of trouble was her throat. Agitated and raw, lined with lumps. He drifted down further. Her lungs were tattered. Arinithe. It was common among those who worked too hard too long and needed something to make themselves keep going through the day. For most it did little harm, but some had stronger reactions. Like her. He could fix it. But unless she stopped smoking as well, it would do little good. For now he soothed the inflammation with his magic, giving her at very least comfort enough to listen as he talked.

When he opened his eyes again, the woman was smiling. The girl was still looking at him suspiciously, but he could see the relief peeking from the corner of her eyes as well. He sighed and sat on the ground. Telling people they had to change was always hard.

“Do you know why you are in pain?”

A glance over to the girl, guiltily. She knew then, but wasn’t going to tell. Instead she smiled and answered with convincing happiness, “No, I don’t. But I’m glad you fixed it doc!”

He fished a coin out of his pocket and held it out to the girl. She stared at it like it was gold which, to be fair, it was. “Go buy some honey, it will help her heal.” She would likely do so anyway, but to ease her conscience he added, “And use the extra to get some food. Be smart about it, low cost and nonperishable.” She looked at the old woman one last time, only scampering off when she nodded assent. A devoted child. He smiled, though his face fell as he looked back to the woman. Hers was stony as well.

He did not bother beat around the bush. “If you keep smoking that, it’ll kill you. I can hold back the pain, soothe the inflammation, but even if I treat it every day it’ll just come back worse the next.”

She nodded. “I know. But if I quit, I can’t work. And we have precious little money as it is.”

“She’ll be worse off it you are dead.”

“She’ll be even worse off if she is starved and dead.”

He sighed, twisted his seat to lean next to her against the wall as he thought.

“First time you’ve been confronted with something you can’t fix eh? Don’t worry, nobody’s a god.”

He didn’t answer. He wasn’t sure if she was trying to be sympathetic or ribbing him but it didn’t matter. His teacher had always admonished him for not being able to see the forest for the trees. Yet it was a trap he fell in over and over again. He sighed again. Nothing but to do it.

Her face was twisted in a wry grin. The grin of someone who expected nothing and often received less. He smiled into it. “True, nobody is a god. But I’m the next best thing.” She laughed and his grin widened. He loved a challenge.

***

Each cycle, he started in the same place: a cave, close to the surface but tucked away where nobody could find him. Where nobody could stop his last-ditch effort, if anyone could be bothered to care in the midst of the fire and storm that raged through the sky. The echoes of thunder bounced against the walls, growing fainter and fainter as time sheared, tossing him into the past. Purple runes faded to darkness, the acrid smell of wild magic dispersed. He stood still.

Eventually he shook himself free of the peaceful quiet. Some cycles it was hunger, others his bladder; regardless, he never moved until he had to. Then he strode forth, confident in the dark warren of tunnels that he had loved running through as a boy. One hand traced the wall. Two lefts, a right, then careful of the hole in the floor. And then light.

It was noon, on a nippy day when spring was not quite fully awake yet. Birds sang. Even that first time, with the end still sharp in his mind, he had smiled.

The first thing he did was always walk north. Two miles from this cave lay another. This one was small, barely big enough for a grown man to slide his shoulders into. Luckily he had never been claustrophobic. Ten feet in, it grew into a small room, just big enough to turn around. Here he had his stash. Travelling clothes, coins, preserved fruits and dried meat, all left years before after a nightmare had woken him from his sleep. It had felt silly at the time, but every year he thanked whatever god had sent that vision.

The meat had gone off, but the fruit was still good. He ate, pocketed the money, felt along the hem of the coat to make sure the two sapphires were still sewn firmly into the seam.

It was one of these that he slit carefully from its fold of cloth, setting it reverently on the table in front of the appraiser. The two had once been earrings, given to him as a gift from a princess right before her execution. He thanked her as well each time he used them.

The old woman seemed to make the appraiser nervous. Or perhaps it was the girl and her dragon, glaring through the window after he had banned pets from entering. The gem drew his focus though. The sage stared out at the street as he inspected it through his glass. It was his third cycle selling the gem to this particular appraiser. He knew what he would get for it, how he would haggle, where they would land. The only question was how exactly he would spend the money this time.

The girl – Miriam, as the old woman had introduced her while giving her name as Agatha – the girl Miriam clearly did not like being left out. She did not like talking either, at least to him. Her face closed as tightly as her mouth. Perhaps she would open up over time. He hoped so.

The appraiser gave his number. Agatha’s face twisted in suspicious delight and he smiled as well as he settled the final sum. She took his arm as they left the store. No chance of her white knight slipping out of her grasp. He was not trying though. He had made up his mind.

***

The building they started with was small. They divided the attic in half with a sheet for their sleeping quarters, tucked a small sofa in the corner of the kitchen, and devoted the rest to what Agatha quickly began calling the Mage’s Hospital. At first they made little money. Their clients drew from the same streets Agatha and Miriam had lived on. Few had money enough for supper, let alone a doctor. He didn’t care. He treated them for free.

For the first month he worked mostly alone. Agatha drifted in and out of withdrawals, helping when she could but mostly laying in her bed resting. Miriam barely left her side, reading aloud to her when she was awake and quietly stroking her hand when not. The pair slowly grew healthier. Food likely did more for them than his careful attentions, but he still made sure to start each day with a check if they needed anything before he gave his magic to the people.

Word spread quickly. Soon wealthier people began to come, those who could pay for the services of a mage in a land where there were few. He made them wait until anyone who could not pay was finished. Sometimes he had no magic left and they went home empty handed. There were few complaints however. Enough were seen that the rumor spread further, of a miracle worker, a mage who could fix the dead. Exaggerated of course, but as long as they were still on the right side of the doorstep…

A year in they had enough to buy a bigger house. Three stories this time, with bedrooms for each of them as well as two spares for patients who needed to stay overnight. There even was a small garden with a narrow porch looking out over it. Despite the step up in accommodations, they stayed in the poorest section of town. The people who needed him most were there, and he took secret enjoyment from the discomfort on nobles’ faces as they exited their polished carriages onto the filthy street.

Miriam seemed to take the bare soil of their new yard as a challenge. At first everything she planted stubbornly refused to live, withering and dying within days, dead leaves dropping to the ground. Slowly though, she started colonizing the torn ground – thanks in no small part to the gardener’s boy, who had taken to hanging out with her after the sage healed him once. He knew from Agatha’s smile that she saw it too. When a year later they started stepping out together, no one was surprised.

***

The years flew. Some days – always treasured in retrospect – he did not think of the end. Would those precious days become more? Would there be a time when he was like the others, with no idea of what was coming? Perhaps. But for now he knew. The world would end tomorrow.

He knew the date by heart but even without a calendar he could tell. The sun always seemed different as it sunk beneath the rooftops for the last time. Fuller, redder. As if it was preparing for what was to come.

The porch creaked as Agatha sat next to him. She tucked her skirts tightly around her legs with a shiver. “You look… lost.” He shrugged, then took off his jacket and draped it over her frail shoulders. She was far healthier than when they had met, but age was catching up to her. At least it would not have a chance to truly ravage her in the end.

“Is it true what they say about mages?”

He shook himself from his thoughts and smiled. “What specifically?”

“That they can see death coming as they age.”

The smile slid from his face and he sighed. “No, not commonly.”

“You look like you’re staring in his face right now, you know.”

He forced a smile. She was always an observant one. “I just need some sleep is all.”

Her eyes told him she didn’t believe him. She did not call him out though, just leaned against his shoulder and shifted her gaze out to the last shards of red spraying above the rooftops. “Pretty isn’t it?”

He hated this sunset. Every time, it was a reminder of another end. Another time he had failed to stop it, another time everything he had built would be ripped away from his grasp. It was the color of fire and blood, a reminder of death waiting on the morning.

He did not realize his hand had clenched the edge of the porch until hers slid gently atop. Her eyes were wet and dark and for a moment she looked unspeakably old. “I don’t know what’s eating you. I can’t promise it will be okay. But I believe you will figure it out. You’re clever, mage-boy. You got this.”

Finally he smiled for real. Satisfied, she gathered herself to her feet. “Now then, I will go to bed. Us old people need our rest. Remember to get some sleep yourself.”

Darkness drew close around him. Stars flickered overhead, lightning bugs down below. In the distance an owl called. Hunting? Looking for a mate? Its song rang hollow and plaintive, never finding an answer. He never took her advice, instead simply waiting. The stars fled, and flecks of fire began to spread across the sky from behind him. They grew brighter and fiercer, writhing and snapping as it became clear this was no normal sunrise. The roar began, winds howling through the stratosphere with enough speed to make the ears ache even on the ground. The spell he had put on their house held. They would sleep peacefully, feel nothing. No fear. No loss. He closed his eyes.

***

He sat by the entrance to his cave, back against the stone. He hadn’t moved to get his stash yet, still too paralyzed by the thought of those he had loved. Again they were lost, yet not. He could go back. Should he? Things never unfolded the same, he knew that from Johan. He himself was a wild card, never consistent in his actions. But they would be similar, the same song played in a different key. He would help a city, save two women off the streets. He had little doubt that if he did not go, Agatha would die, and so would Miriam most likely.

But they would anyway.

Everyone would.

That was the nature of the end. No matter what suffering he alleviated in the world, what good he did, it would make no difference. In a short time, all his work would be erased. The pain would flood back.

And so he sat, slowly growing hungrier.

Should he try stopping it again? He had tried five times already, six if you counted the original. He could change the details, but never the outcome. If he stopped one mage from casting the world-ending spell, another would do it instead. It was like the world came prepackaged with an expiration date and nothing he did could make it last longer.

He got up and paced. He was trapped as much as anyone else. Unless…

He broke off in a run, heading towards his stash. Quickly he retrieved it before sitting on the ground outside the cave. How would he react? Hopefully well, but if not, at least he would be free. He called to his magic, coiling it tight around his head. One pull and… he forgot.

He was lost, alone in the woods. He had supplies. A traveler then? He frowned, wondering why he could not remember. A head injury perhaps. He felt the back of his skull. It was not sore, but bruises could take a while to form. No matter, he had nowhere to be. That much he knew. He stood and slung the pack over his shoulder. A smile split his lips. Time to go explore.

***

He did not know how many times he had made the choice. The expanding chasm between his remembered age and apparent told him it had been many years. Five cycles? Six? He remembered nothing of those lives when he came to himself in the cave. Had they been happy or sad? Who had he met? Part of him felt a twinge of melancholy at the missed memories, but it was overridden time and time again by the fear. He did not want to lose again. And so he made the same choice, over and over. Forget, start anew. Live.

***

He had not been lying those many years ago when he told Agatha that mages had no notion of their end. Men did though, and his creaking bones told him this would be his last cycle. For the first time in many years, he let his memories be. It was time to say goodbye to the world. He did not know what it would do without him. Cycle forever, oblivious and alone? Probably. But at least no one would know. No one would suffer.

The trip to the sea took longer than normal on his tired legs. He sailed across and after a bit of searching found two exhausted women in the street. The dragon growled at him. He ignored it as he dropped a sack of coins at their feet. They called after him but he kept walking. Hopefully they put the sapphires to good use. The last few coins he had kept were enough for a passage home, and for the last time he boarded the ship he had learned to love.

The captain raised an eyebrow as he stepped on. “Found what you were looking for already?”

The sage smiled and shook his head. “Sometimes you need to travel to remember that it lies back home.”

***

The sage walked stiffly up the dirt path to the house which was was once his. It was May and the cherry stood in full bloom. He was grateful to it, grateful that even now in the end he could have his ritual one last time. His cane wobbled as he shifted his weight, reaching a hand to the sky and breaking off a branch. He brought the flowers to his nose. Beautiful.

He turned towards the house but already the door was opening. It was the wrong year, the fourth not the first. Johan was not reading, waiting for his knock, but cooking instead, spying this old man through the lace curtains. The sage waited instead. Johan came across the lawn. For once there was no fear in his eyes at their first meeting – but of course, the sage was old now. The intimidating warrior he had once been was gone, gone except for the short cut of his hair.

Johan was still young, beautiful. The sage stood stunned for a moment before remembering himself and giving the best bow his creaking bones would allow. The cane wobbled. Running footsteps. He did not slip but it did not matter, Johan caught him anyway. Concern in his strange blue eyes, light and out of place against the ebony face.

“Are you alright sir?” The sage smiled and nodded. It was good to hear his voice, deep and melodic. He closed his eyes.

“Sir?”

The voice – Johan’s voice – was concerned. The sage pulled together the fragments of his tired mind. Blue eyes met his own as he dragged his lids back open. So soft, so gentle. He smiled again, answered, “Let’s sit. My bones are old, I could use a rest.”

Together they hobbled to the wooden bench under the cherry. The sage sat, Johan crouched in front of him. The end was near for him, he could feel the blackness ready to swallow up his meager life. He took a deep breath. “I wish to ask a favor, Johan.”

Confusion twisted his face at this old man who knew his name but he said nothing, merely nodded for him to continue.

“Years ago, I buried my husband there, in the cairn. My own death is near. Would you please grant an old man’s last wish and place me next to him?”

Johan nodded. The sage smiled. Still kind. Still good. He patted the seat next to him and Johan shifted out of his crouch obediently. Should he tell him? But no, time was too short and the knowledge would only hurt him. Best let him live happily. He closed his eyes and leaned to the side, letting himself fall into the embrace that opened for him. Here in the end, he was home.

***

The years passed. Lives came and went, the cycle continued.

The world ended.

And yet, it did not. The sage’s magic broken, the cycle shattered.

The world went on.

Many died, but the survivors continued, rebuilt. Children were born, farms sowed. Life went on.

The cairns stood, slowly regrowing the weeds and moss that Johan had diligently kept at bay from the day an old man died in his arms to the day of his own death. Soon the rocks would be buried, nothing but a memory of the past.

The pain would be buried as well, the suffering, the death. The world would rebound.

In a way, he had won.

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Fantasy

Where The Sea Meets the Sky

The rhythm of the rain was different from that of the sea. The sea beat out a commanding monotone, a declaration of power and supremacy. Rain instead grew from a symphony of small sounds. Drops tapping glossy magnolia leaves before sliding off and splashing onto the boulevard they shaded. Metallic tinkles as bounced off the small tin roofs covering the gas lamp posts. And, unusually for a city, the soft patter of water on bone.

It was intermittent, only coming when the leaves grew too heavy and shed their load in a sudden rush. The skeleton waiting beneath them had a cloak but did not put up the oiled hood, instead letting the rain soak its skull like the streets around. After three days of summer downpour, the gutters were full. They added their own notes to the rain-song, a low gurgle underpinning the lighter sounds. In the tree above, wind shook the branches. Broken limbs and ruined blossoms lined the street along with countless leaves torn down. The storm had been unkind. Another gust came, stronger this time. A tiny scream cut the air as a nest, no bigger than a birds, was tipped off its perch.

Nest and contents tumbled into the gutter by the skeleton’s feet. The gurgle stopped, held back by the accidental dam. The skeleton peered through the rain at a distant clock tower. Just two minutes longer. Water had reached the top of the dam and was spilling over now. It should be left, death allowed to take its course. Yet something about the sodden form hidden under the waves tugged at the skeleton’s conscience when it thought it had no pity left to give. Thin fingers sliced through the water as it crouched and pulled out the small body. Doing so was a breach of protocol, but in a minute it wouldn’t matter anymore.

Fey lived short, harsh lives and she had clearly been no exception to the rule. Scars twisted her thin brown skin and a crooked leg betrayed a past fracture. Black hair was matted and uneven and clothes nothing more than a scrap of cloth. Her heart was still beating, for now, though her eyes were closed. After one break of the rules what was another? The skeleton ran a bony fingertip along her back, easing the pain. She would have peace in her last thirty seconds.

She did not seem to want it. The instant his magic took hold, her eyes shot open. The skeleton saw a desperate flash of blue before she leaped for its chest. Resigned, it let her. Peace could only be offered; it was her choice how she spent the last sliver of her life. Her feet raced up its ribs and it nodded to itself. Neck was a common choice, an obvious weak point. Unfortunately also a useless one. Skulls worked equally well attached or not. At the last second she surprised it though, ignoring the neck and vaulting over its sternum to drop into the cavern below. Her heart slowed as she fell. Hopefully she would continue through after dying and it would not have to fish her out.

The sudden impact drove the skeleton to its knees. It gasped for air to feed nonexistent lungs. Its ribs vibrated with a deep bass thump, echoed a moment later by a quieter boom. Fireworks exploding in its chest. Moments passed before the sensations resolved into sense. Its own heart, dry and stiff from years motionless, started again by the hit. And her own, guided by his, fed life once more.

Her fingers were digging into the sides. With each beat they shifted, maintaining their grip as dead cells sloughed off the newly living surface. The skeleton stood shakily, feeling the weight of the unwanted passenger less on its body and more on its mind. She had succeeded. She had cheated it, made it fail at its only job. It could not speak but it pulled a notebook from a cloak pocket with trembling hands. The letters were legible, barely. Let go. 

Her voice was weak but determined. “Shan’t. I don’t want to die.”

The skeleton put the notebook away. Her tone made it clear she would not listen to argument. Even with use of its heart, she would die eventually. There were many other bits of a living body that could fail, and it had long since given those away. The heart had been sentimental idiocy really, and now it paid the price both for keeping it and for betraying the rules. No one must know. Business as usual, and she would soon leave. Resolved, it pulled the cloak closer and slipped into the night.

****

A week passed in silence. She clung to her perch but said not a word. Despite the skeleton’s fervent hopes, both hearts beat stronger. It began to fear others hearing it as it passed on the street. Surely this sound must be audible to all as it banged inside the cage of ribs. The days passed as normal though. None but its prey noted its passing.

Sometimes it could feel a pinching tug. Her nimble fingers were sewing rips together, patching holes with a needle so small it could not even see it. It wondered at the lengths to which creatures would go to preserve their lives. To so desperately fight against the inevitable… it was like a raindrop determined to defy gravity and return to the clouds. There would be no success.

On the seventh day she spoke. “The next one. I need some parts.” The skeleton tilted its skull down to regard her. She glared defiantly up from her prison. “I’ll grab them. You just have to let me. If you don’t, I’ll stab you.”

It looked down the street. A dog this time. He had lived well past his prime. A happy life, even though it played out entirely on the street. Food had been scraps from the trash, companionship had been barefoot children happy to play with a mongrel. The skeleton approached. Dogs never showed fear at the end, just acceptance that their time had come. This one even wagged his tail, a pair of quiet taps against the cobbles. The skeleton crouched to massage his ears gently as life slipped out of his body. For a brief moment the ghost of a dog hovered in the air. The silver form was young again and chased his tail in delight before fading into mist.

Hooded skull tilted down from the last silver flickers to a weight on the skeleton’s arm. She was hanging from its hand, hacking at the fur with a small knife. As it watched, she cut a small slit into the skin and vanished inside. It debated leaving her there but something stayed its motion. Not the threats; despite her residence on its heart it still had no fear of her. Curiosity perhaps? The dog’s sides heaved as she moved inside it. The skeleton marveled at her ability to hold her breath. Finally her head popped out, slick with red blood. She braced her feet against either side of the hole and pulled forth a mess of tangled and unidentifiable gore. Appearing satisfied, she drug it onto the skeleton’s hand. It hastily lifted her back to its ribcage, hoping to avoid more of the blood spilling onto its arm. Instead it leaked down its spine and onto its hips. It pulled the cloak tighter and looked up to the sunny blue sky, wishing for rain. Perhaps luck would be on its side and one of the next tasks would take it by a river. It continued on its duty.

She hummed as she worked. The rhythm threaded in and out of the steady background of their hearts, sometimes trilling above and others diving down into the bass. Her prize was sorted, muscles and tubes and cords all tied in neat bunches like herbs hung up to dry. Feet pattered along the ladder of ribs as she climbed up and down. Strand by strand she was stringing things into its neck, beneath its field of view. Vocal chords? It wondered to what end. Did she not realize how much else was required to work them? Like an organ with no bellows or a piano with no hammer, they would do nothing at all. It debated getting out its notebook to tell her this but elected not to. This life was hers to spend as she would. When she failed, she would learn.

Her song reminded it of something, long ago. Maybe someone. It was not in the habit of dwelling on the past yet still felt its thoughts tugged back. A house on a hill, grass dropping down into the valley and the sea. Waves far below, beating out their notes against the rocks while someone sang in tune.

It shook its head. Jawbone rattling brought its mind to the present. Suddenly it found her presence grating, repulsive even. With a snap as the wrist bones clicked together, it brought its hand down towards her. She shot into its ribcage but the bony fingers slid through easily, grasping, straining as she yelled, “Hey! Stop that!” Rage swelled in it at the idea that such a small creature would dare command it. It refused to obey.

A tug and a prick and then shooting pain. It fell to its knees. “I said quit! I don’t want to hurt you, but I ain’t leaving yet either! I’m not ready! So get your grubby fingers out of my house!”

Her knife must be in its heart. She couldn’t kill it; the heart did nothing at all. The head said one thing but emotions another. It was going to die. Fingers slid from the ribs and dropped to the ground. They splayed onto the cobbles, arm locking to help hold it up. The pain eased. A dull ache radiated from its heart, weighing down its bones. A gentle plucking. She was sewing it up.

It slowly raised to its feet. The heart must go, and her with it. It would give it away to the next person who could use it. Broken as it was, perhaps it would give them another few years. The skeleton reached into its cloak pocket and withdrew the book. She paused suspiciously but then kept going after its hand was full. It flicked through the pages. There. Only a few days from now. The fey was already back to clambering around its neck. It let her. Soon she would be gone and it would have peace once more.

****

She was done working. Her reserves of materials were gone, the last of them tied and sewn into place. Her feet raced up its ribs one last time as she maneuvered up onto the skeleton’s shoulder blade. “Finished! So, what is your name?”

It tilted its skull in disappointment. Her knowledge of anatomy was indeed lacking then. Surprisingly so given as far as it could tell, she had put everything together correctly. She was simply missing parts.

 Her eyes were bright and expectant. It sighed. Then jumped. Sound? It tried a hum. Vocal chords vibrated on a non-existent breeze. Her shining eyes met its confused sockets. It tried words. “How…” Its voice startled it. Deep, mellow tones, warm and gentle like honey. A voice built for singing and laughter.

She bounced to her feet, face splitting in a wide grin. “It worked! I knew it would work! Come on, try it try it!”

The skeleton hesitated, scared of using up this precious gift with the wrong words. They should be meaningful, only the best and most necessary. It paused. Any words would be meaningful to her. Hesitation was set to the side and it returned her question with it’s own, “What is yours?”

She danced with delight. “Mika! I’m Mika! Who are you?”

It answered quickly, unexpected eagerness filling it at the sight of her joy, “I have none. We give our names away first.”

She frowned and tossed herself to sitting. “Well that is stupid. How are you supposed to wander around your whole life… death? Whatever. How are you supposed to not have a name?” Its shrug bounced her into the air. “Well if you gave it away, then I guess I just have to give you a new one. Hmm…”

The skeleton found it could not look away from her eyes. Their blue was deeper than any human’s, almost sapphire. They sparkled like gems when she thought, as if the electrical firing of the neurons was lighting striking through a midnight sky. She shot to her feet and threw a hand out to point at it. “I am going to call you Oliver. Your name is Oliver now. Do you like it?”

He – for it felt strange to think of himself as an ‘it’ with a name like Oliver – tilted his head. A moment ago he would have felt no particular attachment to the name, seen it as no other than the hundreds and thousands held by people around the world. Now though… he nodded, and then remembered her joy and said, “Yes.”

Her smile could bleach out the sun with its light. He looked away.

“Good! Then I picked well. Now then. I need a nap. Wake me for the next big one okay? I am going to need some more parts.” She dropped into his ribs again, impacting with his heart with a gentle thud. He could feel her hands as she curled like a cat on top of it before falling still. Perhaps one day she would make him a face so he could smile.

****

The ninth day had no souls to free. It never did. It was counting day.

Oliver hated it on the best of days. Seeing the many lives reduced to numbers and quotas wore on his patience. With Mika’s existence, counting day presented additional issues. If anyone saw the new voice she had woven him, difficult questions would be asked – ones he was not sure of the right answer to, or even his answer. If it got out he had a name now, it would be even worse. Not going was of course not an option. That would be the most suspicious of all.

There was also the logistical challenge. Living were under no circumstances to enter the counting chambers. Doing so was an instant death. The marble hounds guarding the door would spring to from their podiums, ripping the offending being to shreds. He had seen it happen once. Even years later the blood still lingered in the cracks between the flagstones, darker stains on the mortar that here and there indicated some unwise soul had met its end.

Mika was still asleep. He was loath to wake her but the sun was rising quickly and he did not know how easy she would be to convince. Ribs clattered as he knocked on them with bony knuckles. Her voice was sleepy and irritated as she looked up to snap, “Would you quit that ruckus? I was sleeping!”

Words still came hard to him. He plonked them down with the deliberate air of a scrabble player, “We need to talk.”

She groaned and pushed herself to sitting, muttering under her breath. The past week had given him familiarity with the reluctant slowness with which she rejoined the conscious. He gave her time, lowering his hand as he walked aimlessly along the street.

Finally she spoke again, “So, you want to talk? I knew giving you a voice was a smart first step! What are we talking about?”

Oliver tried to decide how to explain but quickly gave up and instead simply said, “It’s counting day. You cannot come.”

She scampered up onto his shoulder before asking, “What is counting day? Why can’t I come?

He looked down at her small form. Her wings vibrated with all the excitement in her voice, gossamer flickering through the air like a caged rainbow. This was serious, but she did not realize. “They will kill you if you come. You have to wait outside. Okay?”

She frowned but the energy trilling through her body did not calm. Where had it come from? So much life to be in one who so recently was at death’s door. Her eyes narrowed suspiciously and she set her hands on her hip, “Is this a ploy to get rid of me? If so I refuse. And I’ll stab you. Again.”

He shook his head. The thought had not crossed his mind. Not that it mattered, she would die soon anyway. No point in plotting. Considering her death made him perplexingly sad. He paused for a moment to stare at the emotion and then set it aside. Emotions were silly things, best ignored. Like names? muttered a treacherous corner of his mind. He ignored it as well.

She was staring at him. Her long hair fell to one side as she tilted her head in consideration. “You promise?” He nodded. She crossed her arms stubbornly, “I want you to say it.”

He did not bother protest, simply said, “I promise.”

She stayed on his shoulder for the rest of the walk to the Door. It looked like any other government building, except that nobody went in or out. The living did not register its existence. The dead could, but his city was small. He was the only skeleton to walk through this one of the Hall’s many Doors.

At the top of the marble stairs he held out his hand. Mika jumped onto it. Nervousness creased her forehead. Without thinking, he reached out a finger and smoothed the wrinkles. She stared at him. Embarrassment was just another emotion, but a powerful one. He hastily set her down beside one of the fluted pillars and rushed to the Door. It was overlarge, made of heavy oak bound with iron belts. A lack of muscles meant his strength was limitless though, and he pulled it open easily.

His footsteps slowed as he entered. The Hall beyond was far larger than the building in the city, a huge tower that stretched into the sky above and the earth below. Each level was a ring of Doors leading out onto a circular balcony bordered by an elaborate golden rail. Spiral staircases of the same golden metal connected the floors. Every tenth was a counting room. His usual was three up.

Marble floors echoed as his heels slid reluctantly towards the stairs. Skeletons bustled about him. Most were completely bare of flesh and skin, but here and there a newer one walked nervously through the mix. A patch of skin or the edge of an organ were briefly visible as their cloaks billowed about them. He pulled his own cloak closer, glad he had not discarded it as many did once they lost the trappings of their former lives.

The nearest staircase was packed so he went one further before ascending. Here and there a skeleton nodded politely to him, and he back. They had never spoken, or even written to each other, but after sharing a floor for years they were at least a friendly face to acknowledge. More familiar faces crowded the two-story cathedral of the counting room. He peered over the sea of heads, glad for the edge his few extra inches of height lent him. The lines were moving quickly. Soon he would be in the room. Nervously he glanced at the hounds flanking the entrance archway. Their white heads drifted as burning eyes roamed the crowd. He had nothing to worry about; she was not here and he was hardly any more alive than the new ones. Still, he could not suppress a shiver that sent his bones rattling.

Time crawled by, each second stretched to an eternity by his nerves. One of the hound’s eyes settled on him. He tensed. It drifted onward. The press of people pulled him further and further in. Finally he reached a clerk. The skeletons staffing the desks along either side of the room were ancient. They were the few who had continued long enough to retire from the world. Instead of streets and life, they passed their days among mahogany and green leather, sitting on cushioned chairs unnecessarily soft for their bony bottoms, writing away lives in endless ledgers. This one was particularly old, bones brittle and yellow. The accountants always gave him the feeling of being a schoolboy pulled up in front of the class by the teacher. This time, when he knew he had done something wrong, was far worse.

Oliver held out his hand. The clerk tapped a pen to the bone, drawing forth a curl of silver which wrapped around the shaft. It began to write. Words flowed onto the page. Names. As each appeared, the clerk consulted a second ledger, placing red ‘x’ marks as it cross-referenced.

The flow of words stopped. It looked between the ledgers. It looked up at him. Back down. A finger tapped a name, no red x next to it. His heart thumped in his chest. The clerk spun the book for him to read but he had already guessed at the name written in neat black cursive. Mikalana Nasu Tobishi. It was watching him. He hastily pulled out his own book, making a show of checking through the pages and then nodding. It nodded back and waved for him to go.

As he left, he cursed his stupidity. Of all his worries, he did not even consider she would be noticed in counting? Idiotic. Nine days to do something about it then or… what? He did not know. Never had he failed before, even when he was new. Would he be punished? Would they send someone else? His thoughts swirled. The return trip barely registered in his mind. It was not until the bright sunlight warmed his face that he came back to himself.

She was running across the flagstones. He wondered why she did not fly. Were her wings broken? Guilt filled him as he realized he had never thought to check, to care. He shoved the feeling away, irritation replacing it and then rage as he registered the irritation. Calm was a fleeting deer hidden in the woods but he hunted it the same. Hands grasped at his fibula as she began to climb. He bent and offered a hand. She took it with a smile and let him raise her to his shoulder.

“You know, I didn’t think you would come back. I was getting ready to leave.” Her voice was shaky and he could feel her tremble vibrating through his bones. He did not want those wet eyes to overflow, could not handle it right now. With a simple shrug he looked away and let himself vanish into the crowds.

****

The next day was busy. The backlog from the previous day needed cleared, as well as the new day’s tasks. Mika was busy as well, sliding up and down his arm as he worked. She was choosy, only plucking one or two items from each corpse they visited. Here an eyeball, there a patch of scalp. Her collection hung heavily in his chest.

At midday, it was a cat. He recognized this one, a stray with as many names as patches in its calico coat. A few of its past lives had lodged in his memory as well, visits where he shaved off just a fraction of its soul before returning the rest to its battered body. This had been the ninth, lost to a speeding cart. The ghost was as miffish as all cats, glaring at him irritably while twitching its tail. When he left it be instead of shearing off the customary slice, it tilted its head in confusion. Its nose poked its body hopefully but to no avail. It would not be returning again.

Mika was already by its head, unaware of the ghost hovering above. It turned to watch as she carefully carved out a second eye for her stash. Cats often hunted fey. Most had lost a life or two when they discovered these birds were a bit different and had the tools to fight back. Oliver could not remember if one of this cat’s nine had gone that way, but it at least had the sense not to try pouncing on her. Instead it looked away angrily and jumped onto Oliver’s shoulders.

He turned to look at it. To his surprise, she did too, hands on her hips, oblivious or uncaring of the blood dripping down her thigh. “Hey! Furball! That is my spot!”

It peered down at her to hiss disapproval. Oliver ignored it and asked curiously, “You can see it?”

She nodded angrily. “Course. Get it off my spot.”

He gently lifted the cat into his arms instead. Spectral fur stood on end and its tail snapped side to side, but it stayed in place. “How long have you been able to see them?”

She shrugged and began clambering up his legs, “I dunno. Since you tried to kill me? Seems about right.”

If Oliver had believed in a higher power, he would have thanked them now. A perfect solution had presented itself. He waited until Mika reached his shoulder and then asked carefully, “What do you think of what I do?”

She busied herself untangling the nerve endings of the eye as she answered, “Eh? Someone has to do it right? And it ain’t like you are the one who kills them. Even though I was just yelling about myself. Sorry. That was unfair.”

His words danced through his mind like a ballerina through a minefield before he strung them together into his offer, “You could join if you wanted. It would keep you safe from dying, and let you keep doing what you do. It would even make it easier since you wouldn’t be stuck going at my pace.”

It had been too much to hope that she would pounce on the offer, but he had wished for more than an indifferent twitch of the shoulders. “I’m already safe. Got the only one of you who works here under my thumb. Metaphorically. You don’t share territory, right?”

Oliver hesitated, trying to decide what to tell her. No, they didn’t. In big cities they would keep separate areas, roads and rivers as the dividing lines. But that did not necessarily mean she was safe. If they realized he was failing his duty, intentionally or not, surely they would send someone else to… fix it. To fix her.

Doubt crept into his mind. Or would they? Perhaps he was worrying about nothing. After all, in his many years here, never had anyone else crossed through the door. Not when there was plague and bodies piled high in the streets and he forgot counting day in the daze of working too hard and seeing too much. Not when he had given his second eye to a child hunting scraps, her little hands pattering the ground desperately for the crumb right in front of her, rendering him unable to navigate until he learned the trick of seeing without eyes. Of course, every time he had fallen behind, he had caught up once more. But it had taken time, sometimes months.

She was watching him, waiting for his answer with uncharacteristic patience. He was glad he had no face to read for it would surely betray the debate whirlwinding through his thoughts. They had time. No sense worrying her yet. Oliver smiled in his mind to force it into his voice and answered her finally, “No, you are right, we do not. Come on, let’s get to the next.”

Mika smiled at him and then looked down to scowl contemptuously at the cat. “What are we doing with the stupid furball? I’m not sharing.”

Instead of answering, Oliver gently set the cat on the ground, running his hand thrice along its back before beginning to walk. Mika stared behind them and growled a tag nervously, “Oliver, it’s following us.”

He glanced back. Its tail swung back and forth like a pendulum as it traced his footsteps. He looked back forward. “Cats are stubborn and a bit entitled. It will leave once it realizes I have nothing more to give it. You can just ignore it; it won’t hurt you.” He carefully did not mention the ways in which she reminded him of a cat. It would only make her mad.

****

During her increasingly infrequent breaks, Mika had continued sitting on his shoulder instead of hiding by his heart. He wondered if it was because she had less fear of him trying to remove her these days. Alternately, it could just be that things were getting crowded in his chest. As she rested less and less, her work sped and his body developed quickly. Each day she added something new. Lungs that could feel the cool of the night air. Eyes to once again pick out the tall buildings and low bushes in far brighter color and contrast than his mental vision could. A stomach that gurgled for he had no way to feed it. And mixed through everything, strand upon strand of muscle and ligament and vein.

Two things were becoming clear. Firstly, wherever she had come from, she had worked extensively with bodies. A doctor maybe, or even a taxidermist. Once he tried to ask but she merely fixed him with a blank stare before continuing to stitch together veins like she had never heard his question. He got the message. Besides, the second was far more pressing and took up most of his thinking time: they would definitely notice next counting day.

Hounds would likely be no problem. Mismatched parts, missing parts, and all, he certainly was not alive or even physically capable of becoming alive. But the others would see that he had changed. That he had gone backwards. Skeletons never went backwards, at least none that he knew of. Whether it was explicitly banned, he did not know. He was unsure he wanted to find out.

Of course, he could just skip. How long until they came? There was no emergency. No excuse.

He looked down at the small figure threading ligaments along his arm. Her body was stained brown from blood and gore, but she did not seem to notice. On his trek through the city, he stopped frequently at fountains to splash clean the tracks she left on the ever dwindling number of exposed bones he had. Mika never joined, or even paused most times. Despite his silence, she acted like she knew time was short.

A pang of worry cut through him and he reached his other hand over to scoop her up. She spun, furious, hands instantly snapping to her hips. “Oliver! You made me drop it! Now I have to start all over!” Her fury burned brighter in the face of his hesitant silence. “What do you want! Stop just staring at me!”

Words fell from his mind, shot down by the daggers in her eyes. Try as he might, the only thing he could scrape together was a lame, “You need a bath.”

Rage puffed into smoke and she started laughing. Tears cut sparkling paths through the grime as she moved her hands from her hips to clutching her sides. Oliver brought his other hand to hover nervously nearby, watching her footing as she shuddered. He wasn’t sure anymore if she was laughing or crying. A bit of both it seemed. There was work to do but he stopped, sat in the middle of the street. People split to flow around him without realizing they were doing so, avoiding an invisible rock in the river of traffic.

Mika crumpled to her knees, still spasming as she choked out strangled noises. Pain closed his new throat. He slowly ran a finger along her crackly hair, flakes of blood chipping off and speckling the bone. It seemed to help. Sobs grew quieter, her thin frame grew still. Had she fallen asleep? He hoped so, for in her focus on working she had been sleeping seldom and little.

Sleep was just a dream though, quickly dispelled as she pushed herself to sitting. Her face was mostly washed clean now, though it still burned red. Blue eyes stared into his own, drawing him in deeper and deeper, drowning him in the sea. A smile cracked her lips. She nodded. “Fine, if you insist. But just a quick one.” Waves pleaded him to stay as he tore his gaze away. The roar of the ocean retreated, tall rocky cliffs faded to the ruined facade of an old townhouse. He blinked to clear his vision, for he could do that now. His city, surrounding him with its reassuring weight. And her, waiting expectantly.

Feet swung into motion without his true attention. Longing still tugged at his heart. A sense of needing to be somewhere, though he knew not where. Blue-streaked marble loomed before him. Ah. The city bathhouse. He looked to his feet and gave quick thanks before pushing open the door. If she was to only have a quick bath, it would be the best money could buy or death could steal.

****

The cat was still following them. Mika pretended to ignore it, but he could tell by her frequent sidelong glances that it secretly bothered her. Then again, so did much these days. The closer counting day got, the more on edge she was. Pieces flew into place, stitch after stitch holding them together. When he tried to talk, she simply muttered, “Shut up, I’m busy,” and refused to answer further. No longer did she rest, or hardly even pause for breath. Unsure what else to do, Oliver worried.

She was working on his face. A patchwork of pieces tacked in place with threads. Anger in the crinkles by her eyes. Frustration. Small hands ripped down the delicate structure and tossed it to the ground. Again. Again. Quiet mutters under her breath, audible only due to her proximity to his ears. Why isn’t it right. Why can’t I make you look right. It’s all wrong. Why can’t I do this.

Why can’t I save you.

The newest face was strewn on the cobbles. He crouched to pick it up before the cat started playing with it. She did not notice. The neat stack in his hand was growing but he was unsure what else to do with them. Maybe she would need them. Maybe it would help her when he did not know how to do so himself.

****

It was the day before counting. He was almost whole again, in a way. Like a vase shattered and glued together. Except the pieces accidentally came from many vases, and the result looked a bit like something a child had attempted after breaking its mother’s favorite decoration. Still, he loved it. The wind tickled fine hairs on his arms. Everything he touched had a texture to be rediscovered. Sounds were crisp and vivid. He felt almost alive again. Of course he was not, it was all just an illusion. Oliver did not care. He felt joy, and let himself feel it.

She was still working, patching a piece of his leg. He had no face yet, but the muscles that would one day control it were enough to smile. He smiled at her. “Mika. Mika, do you hear the birds?” She did not. Did not hear him either. Her mind was dark except for the narrow light of her task. “Mika, look, the flowers are blooming! How pink they are!” His excitement fell on deaf ears. The cat twitched its tail, ostensibly wondering why the skeleton that was no longer a skeleton had gone crazy. “Mika. Please. Listen to me.” She did not, could not. All that reached her mind was the litany of things which still needed done, and the constant mantra fighting against doubt. I can do it. I just have to try hard enough. I can save you. Just wait. Wait for me.

****

She was working on his face again. Evening had fallen but he stood patiently under a streetlamp to give her light. Not because she had asked; she never did. The first night she worked, she had fumbled in the dark and continued by feel until he finally paused under the gas flame. Now it was habit. The pause did him well. He only wished she would join.

The ocean eyes were hovering just inside his field of vision. They reminded him of a memory, buried so deep as to be almost lost if not for this x on the treasure map of his mind. A color of blue, matching the sea. From the top of the cliffs it stretched forever. The sky swung down to meet it, light and dark melding in a hazy gradient on the horizon. His legs had swung in the open air, far too high to feel the spray but plenty high to feel a faint trill of excitement at the thought of nothing beneath them except the wind and the waves. Heather had plucked at his pants, plain cotton like the shirt he wore, dyed blue to mimic the ocean but never quite matching the shade. He had been happy. Belonged.

Her eyes dipped from sight as she moved down his cheek. A frown pulled his muscles. Then it had all changed. She had laid on their bed, still, cold. The sun had shone, he had screamed at it to go dark, hide behind the clouds, anything. Life couldn’t go on. How could the rest of the world have stayed the same when his corner of it had changed so irreversibly. Waves pounded the cliff. The rhythm she had loved had become a taunt. I am forever. I will outlive all. I will never change. Your pain is nothing. His voice had gone hoarse, fallen silent. Sea’s song battered his heart for it was right. The world cared not for his grief.

The sea had risen up to meet him like an old friend opening its arms. There must have been pain, but all he remembered was the cool embrace. Color swirled around him as the currents dragged him down, down. He was part of it, drifting with the waves. It whispered its secrets, giggling like a girl telling of her first love. Ears filled with the bubbling; he couldn’t make out the words. It was important though, a way to stay a part of this ocean. To be forever. He dissolved.

A voice snapped him back to the present. The wrong one. Mika. “Are you okay?” He blinked. It was the first willing words she had uttered for almost a week. “You’re crying.” She was leaning back, peering into his left eye with her own. He held out a hand and she dropped into it obediently. Again her arms were crossed. The muscles weren’t bunched as tightly as usual though. Looser, less defensive. Worried. “Oliver?” Finally he found it in himself to nod. She did not look convinced. Probed further. “What are you thinking about?”

Answers swirled through his mind. Explanations that would make sense. Excuses that he didn’t want to talk about it. Options upon options through which he dug until he finally found the truth.

“I want to go home.”

She was confused, that much was obvious. “Isn’t this your home?”

He shook his head. Since his death it was his city, but he had never lived here. Never been more than a shadow slipping unseen through its streets. It belong to him, yes, but not he to it.

“Alright then. Where are we going?”

Feet started walking. Mika settled cross-legged in his hand, bright eyes still watching. He couldn’t help but smile at how quickly the weight of worry had flipped from his heart into her own. His smile confused her further, and he laughed. “What! Why are you laughing?”

He shook his head. It was too hard to explain. For a few blocks she was silent before asking, clearly nervous to bring it up, “What about tomorrow? Is home close?” Calico tufts of hair bobbed as he shook his head again. She tiptoed further, “But… don’t we need to. You need to go to the building?”

Oliver smiled and answered, carefree, “No. They’ll come for us eventually. But we can deal with it then. Right?”

She stared at him and cast helplessly for words. “Your face is half done.”

His grin widened and he lifted her up. “Then finish it. I like where you are going with this one. It’ll be perfect.”

****

The sun circled across the sky many times. Truly the world is large. Forests bled into savanna before she tugged the last stitch into place. “Finished.”

He checked his face in a pool of water, crouching across from a drinking antelope. It was nothing like the face he once had, the one he only vaguely remembered in bits and pieces. By many standards it was hideous, a jagged patchwork of skin tones with two different eyes, one from a cat, peering out of it. Mika was watching nervously. The cat lapped uselessly at the water, tongue passing through the surface without rippling it at all.

His heart beat, his blood flowed. Warmth rose deep from his bones. On the other side of the muddy oasis, the antelope suddenly started and took flight. He laughed as he gave her the praise she desired, “It is perfect.”

She smiled, tension uncoiling as she slumped into his hand. “I did it.”

He nodded. “Yes, you did.”

Her eyes drifted slowly shut, smile still playing across her lips as she finally, finally, let go.

****

Waves pounded far below. The cat sat at his heels. Still following even now. He should be unable to see it with life flowing through his veins, but perhaps they were bound by its eye that he now carried. Its company was welcome.

Sea sang its song. I am forever, I am eternal. Endless pounding as it slowly wore down even the hard stone of the cliffs, year after year, far into the future. Now another voice trilled above, triumphant. An plea not meant for him, but which had ended in his life regardless. Stay, wait for me. I will save you. If it takes my own life, I will save you. You will live.

The sea called to him, whispering its secret that no man could hear even at the hour of his death. It demanded he return, yield to its unending presence. He turned. The house on the hill waited for him. Twin cherry trees sat over the graves where they lay. The sea took but the sky gave, spinning new life out of the worn threads of the dead. Years later, they bloomed.